Ready or not...

Well, I'm not ready... but weigh in day is coming regardless.

I have decided to start planning for next week (how often have we heard that?). I am coming up with my meal plans for the week (beginning Friday) and will grocery shop accordingly.

I made the mistake of taking my B12 vitamin before bed last night. NEVER AGAIN! It really woke me up!! I can take a B complex before bed, but not the straight up B12... I was up until 3am. How did I remedy my fatigue this morning? Coffee and more B12! It made for a great day!!

Here's what I ate today
Breakfast: fruit salad (2), yogurt (1)
Lunch: chicken breast (3), steamed veggies (0), fruit salad (1), cheese (2)
Dinner: 6 egg whites (2), steamed peppers (0), cheese (2), yogurt (1), angel food cake muffin (2)
Dessert at lunch and dinner: chocolate milk (6)
Total: 22
Water: 4L (plus maybe one more)

Good luck tomorrow. i will not have favourable results, but what can you do? I will still reach goal weight this year!!

Tara: I hereby KICK thee and me in the BUTT!

Okay... this is ridiculous. I can stay on track for what... 1 week? I realize last week I was under the weather and had some stress... and this week I have huge stress, but really? It's no excuse. Why can't I be one of those people who LOSE their appetite during stressful times? Friday afternoon when I got the call about my Poppa Jim... I felt sick and had no appetite... that has since changed. Today, I am a bottomless pit!! I don't even know what to say... I can make all the excuses in the world, but that isn't getting the job done.

Tara... we both need to get ourselves in order here!! I at least have a treadmill... but we both have exercise tapes and we both know how to make good food choices. We need to inspire each other here!!! As a friend, I will try to do that in the upcoming days/weeks/months!!

I have some photos today!!

First... some NEW FINDS!! McCain singles... the cupcakes are 2pts and the cheesecakes are 3pts. I have tasted both tonight... they are good.



Next... some food. Some peppers cut up and pretty. Also, my dinner tonight (chicken, black beans, salsa, sour cream and cheese in a lettuce wrap... and some steamed veggies with sea salt).


I didn't even write down what I ate today... so, I'm going to try to be honest and tell you what I had. I thought about not posting because I'm ashamed of how much I've eaten... but, here it goes

Breakfast: oatmeal (2), yogurt (1)
Lunch: healthy pizza (5), fruit salad (2), yogurt (1), lemon angel food cake (2)
Dinner: lettuce wraps with chicken and cheese (4), veggies (0)
Snacks: 2 cheesecake singles (6), 3 singles cakes (6), popcorn (3)
Total: 32. Are you kidding me? This is why I need to track as I go along during the day...
Water: 4L

FYI - apparently I lied about the angel food cake recipe yesterday. you have to use LIGHT pie filling, not just any pie filling!! Luckily my lemon pie filling happens to be light... but the blueberry is not. I'll donate that to a foodbank and make sure I only buy light pie filling!

Biggest Loser anyone? Joelle is driving me nuts!! Carla's anger is not attractive to me either... I understand she is frustrated, but let's show some class on national tv, shall we?

(I am watching Biggest Loser and just saw a commercial for the McCain singles!! haha!)

Happy Wednesday. I may starve myself tomorrow to do some drastic damage control before weigh in!!

Emotional Eating at its BEST!

The good news? Poppa Jim continues to improve. They found more blood on the brain... which is concerning. They did another operation on him today, but his symptoms continue to improve. Apparently it's not uncommon for someone his age (a young and ripe 79!) to have more bleeding after the first operation. Stacey and Aunt Faye are with him today and tomorrow and they are very pleased with how he looks. He recognized Stacey immediately and his speech is improving (it was slow).

The weekend was full of ups and downs... and lot's of eating. I literally stopped keeping track of what I was eating. My weight this morning... not pretty. It's back to the highest it was after Christmas. I feel a little hopeless.... this stress is not going away any time soon (after popppa jim gets better more stress will start with what will happen to my grandma and poppa jim)... i'm just going to have to adjust. I have to recall that I have to reach goal weight this year.

I haven't been tracking (in a WW tracker) what i've eaten this week (Fri, Sat, Sun or Mon)... but I can tell you what I ate today.

BF - skipped it. Was running late for a meeting
Lunch - healthy pizza (same veggie pizza I made before) (5), fruit salad (2), yogurt (1)
Dinner - lettuce wraps with chicken breast (3), cheese (2), salsa (0), spoonful of black beans (0), 1 tbsp ff sour cream (0), yogurt (1), snap peas (0)
Snack - lemon angelfood cake x2 (4)
Total: 18

Lemon angelfood cake you ask? My mom printed off a recipe last weekend from WW that I wanted to try... mix fruit pie filling with angelfood cake mix and bake. It's 2pts for 1/24th of the cake. My mom and I made it with raspberry pie filling... I'm not so crazy about the raspberry seeds in my teeth. The recipe recommended blueberry pie filling. Tonight I made it with lemon pie filling... and I baked it in 24 muffin tins... so I have cupcakes!

Good Luck

Well, tomorrow officially begins the new week. I need luck tonight, but not for my week... My Poppa Jim is at the hospital right now. He was disorganized and incoherant today. He fell yesterday in the snow when he went to get the mail) and couldn't get up... a neighbour finally saw him and tried to help but couldn't, she left to go get someone else to help... they couldn't' get him up... they went to get younger people to try to help lift/carry him... when they got back, someone else driving by had seen him lying in the snow and was able to help him. I have no idea how long my poor 79yr old Poppa Jim was lying in the snow... so, tonight he was incoherant and not making sense. The ambulance was called and he's at the hospital. They think he might just have a fever and they are doing bloodwork. That's all we know right now. My Uncle Danny and a couple of cousins (andrew and mathew) are staying with grandma tonight... i don't know if she realizes what is going on really (her dementia is progressing), but they are keeping her busy playing cards. At this moment I feel optimistic... time will tell. All I know is I don't feel ready for a repeat of 3 years ago (3 years ago this March and April... Tara, you remember what I'm talking about... you were on the "frontlines"!!).

Anyway... I'm just getting that off my chest. I'm going to try not to let it interfere with my efforts this week!!!! I'll feel better if I at leat have control over my weight loss. Regardless of the challenges I (or my family face) this year... there are good things to come as well!! Chin up young person (I'm the young person!). But, if anyone feels like saying a prayer or some sort of prayer equivalent for my Poppa Jim and grandma... I would appreciate it tonight :)

On to next week...

Up until a couple of hours ago I still felt like crap. My legs and stomach muscles feel like I have been working out for 2 days straight (I wish!). For me, this is a flu symptom... but I'm positive it will pass. I woke up in the night being sick and it continued this morning... almost didn't go to work, but eventually decided I was well enough to go... which was stupid after the drive from hell to get to the office (the good news about working in an office setting... we closed early today due to the weather... got to go home a whole hour early!). I really didn't eat much today, just snacked on fruit and popcorn... tonight though I feel better and did have a couple of my homemade egg rolls and then some more popcorn... then then just had a 100cal of swedish berries. Total points for today? 17 (all on the aforementioned food).

The good news is that something happened tonight (FINALLY) that leads me to believe the bloating will subside by the weekend. That's it, I'm getting back at it hardcore this weekend (well, I work a 12hr day on Sunday... but Saturday is a day of resting and exercising).

Not much else to report today... so alas, the dishes await me.

Good luck tomorrow dear Tara! We can kick BUTT next week... okay?

Things are not getting any better

I feel like poop.

I have not exercised today.

I'm so tired... I slept through my alarm today. Had a coworker not text messaged saying she wasn't coming in to the office today, I might still be asleep. My period (or rather PMS... still waiting for the period) is the death of me this month. I go between feeling bloated and crampy to feeling totally nauseated. Drinking warm water this morning seemed to help, maybe I'll have more tonight.

My question right now... should I go to weigh in on Thursday? Tara... I need your help. Alex and I are going to the Oshawa Generals game Thursday night with my parents, so I'm not going to my regular WW. I COULD go to a WW location in north Oshawa during my lunch... it's a bit rushed, I've done it before... it's a pain to change into my "weigh in clothes", but it's not unheard of... the other thing to consider? My 6 month pass ran out last week, so I have to buy more tickets... I could buy them in Oshawa... or I can take a week off and go back next week. I know I will be up this week... BUT, I'll be up whether I go to WW or not. I just don't know what to do. Tara, HELP ME:)

Here's what I ate today:
Breakfast - apple (1), yogurt (1)
Lunch - flatout (1), chicken breast (3), cheese (1), salsa (0), yogurt (1), fruit salad (2), ww mini choc bar (2)
Snack: 100 cal almonds (2)
Dinner: lettuce wraps (0), chicken breast (1), refried beans (2), cheese (1), ff sour cream (1), salsa (0), ww mini choc bars (3)
Snack: cadbury thin (2)
Total: 24 (oops)

Have I mentioned my insane chocolate craving today?

Tonight's plan has changed. Originally it was going to be a night of the ab ripper, biggest loser cardio as well as treadmill. I feel like poop. Plans have changed to a night to recover on my couch. I am in so much discomfort it's unbelievable. I'm sorry to complain a lot... I am desperate for relief from this!! Please, pray for my period (it's 4 days late... i am not pregnant, so don't even go there!). Tara - I do have the whole P90X program! A girl at work gave me a copy... when I see you I'll try to remember to bring it and maybe J can make you your own copy from it!! I wouldn't be surprised if Ty has it... he's one ripped guy!

Yay for Biggest Loser night. I will pray to the weight loss gods that I get my motivation back (and lose my discomfort)... I'm still going to reach goal weight this year... just not this week. I really can't wait to feel better though and get back into my routine!

This is NUTS

I'm already fed up with my efforts this week. I didn't get on the treadmill for 3 days in a row... I ate... I am bloated worse than EVER...

I did get on the treadmill this morning... although I was dragging my feet. I attempted to do the P90X Ab Ripper workout this evening... I didn't make it through the entire 15min... I barely even did half the workout. This could be a good goal for me, make it through the ab workout.

My eating this weekend could be worse... but could be much better. I didn't track what I ate. On Saturday I really didn't eat a lot... I resisted my cupcakes and the quesadillas that were there... ate the veggie egg rolls (baked) that I took and some chicken lasagna. I had some low fat trifle as well... but no candy or chocolates... no alcohol... just crystal light. Sunday was a different story. I didn't eat anything horrible (besides 7 Hershey kisses)... it was just all of the snacking that caught up with me (popcorn, angel food cake). I didn't step on a scale Sunday morning... had I done that, maybe I would have been more on track throughout the day. This is precisely the reason I need to weigh myself every day... the first day I don't, I'm in 'avoidance/denial' mode and go hog-wild in what I eat that day. Today was the first time I stepped on the scale since Saturday... I weighed the exact same. Didn't gain weight on the weekend... but didn't lose any. I am in trouble this week if I don't do serious damage control. It would help if my period would get here already and the bloating could go down. I think tonight I will make another healthy steamed veggie pizza to take in my lunch tomorrow (after I watch Jon and Kate in their new house... HUGE house!).

Here's what I ate today:
Breakfast: fruit salad (2)
Lunch: 4 egg rolls (4), smart ones baked ziti (6)
Dinner: lettuce chicken enchilito (cross between an enchilada and burrito in a lettuce wrap).. lettuce (0), chicken (1), low fat refried beans (1), cheese (1), corn (0), black beans (0), salsa (0)... yogurt (1)... steamed green beans (1)
Total: 17 (low, but I'm compensating for the weekend!)
Water: 4L

Tomorrow's plan... treadmill, work, ab workout, biggest loser workout... dinner and BED!!

PS - forgot to mention the angel food cake recipe my mom printed off the weight watchers website. Take an angel food cake mix and just mix in a blueberry pie mix... bake, cool, cut into 24 pieces and it's 2pts per serving! We didn't have blueberry pie mix at mom's so we used raspberry. Next time I would make it with blueberry and I would bake it in muffin tins to have individual cakes...

Time for a kick in the butt!

I blew it big time yesterday... I snacked all day I guess and didn't even pay attention to what I was eating while I was baking and cooking... by the time dinner was ready at 7:30 I wasn't even hungry... I still ate some... Today the scale tells me I did HORRIBLE yesterday (doesn't help that my period arrives tomorrow). I am back on track today... I am going to a 'girls day' gathering where there will be lot's of food... but I will make good choices and control myself. I will keep my crystal light in hand at all times and that will help.

I'm TRYING to muster up the energy to get on the treadmill... but I already feel exhausted today! Doesn't matter though, I don't have a choice!!

Happy weekend!

Jeepers Creepers

I was only down 0.8lbs. That's it!!! It's QUITE frustrating... but, I'm not throwing in the towel. On to next week. This IS my bloated week after all... historically I'm up this week of the month... Still, I really was hoping for more after my efforts.

I'm exhausted after being up late last night... I missed Ugly Betty due to falling asleep on the couch. I was supposed to bake cupcakes tonight but I'm taking the afternoon off work tomorrow... so I can bake then!! Tonight, I relax. Actually, i'm taping Grey's in case I fall asleep again... and I can watch it tomorrow. i am enjoying McSteamy's injury though!!!! I enjoy any scene with McSteamy!

Despite only getting 5.5hrs of sleep last night I did still managed to get on the treadmill today. no biggest loser workout tonight though. Today's food consisted of a banana for breakfast... then nothing until my subway tonight, 3 lindor chocolates and a popcorn ball for a total of 22pts. My leader has suggested I increase the protein this week if I continue with so much cardio... maybe I actually didn't eat enough last week considering my activity. Only time will tell... but, I'm not giving up!

GOAL WEIGHT IN 2009!!! Bigger things await a smaller me!!

Good Luck!

Well, I caved and had 3 cookies last night... it happens. It was actully 2 cookies and some cookie dough. We'll see if it matters today. The scale isn't showing much movement from last week... i don't have good feelings for tonight!

Care to see what 6 hours of baking looks like (well, baking and packaging)?

It's chocolate chip cookies and popcorn balls packaged in separate bags but then tied together