Well, I'm trying at least...

There's my weight watchers dinner of champions (the night before weigh in when you're sure you're up).

The good news? I got up and did my biggest loser workout this morning. It wasn't near as tough as I feared a 6:30am workout may be. I was dragging my feet by the time Jillian takes over, but I still did it.

I'm feeling rather discouraged lately. I don't know if I'm just not trying as hard as I did from January to March... or if my body is rejecting my efforts. I feel like I try hard, don't see results, and give up for a week... it's a 2 week cycle. It's crunch time though. Weddings are in 2 months and counting. It sucks that I feel like I might as well give up because how much of a dent can I make in my weight in 2 months? I just keep going up no matter what I do... I'm sick of going to WI and being told I'm up 0.4 or 0.6... it all adds up!

That being said, here's today's summary:
Breakfast - egg (2), raspberries (1)
Lunch - salad with tuna (1), cheese (1), peppers and onions (0), ff italian (1), lettuce (0), yogurt (1)
Dinner - lettuce wraps (0) with chicken breast (3), cheese (1), peppers, onions and tomatoes (0), 4 tbsp light sour cream (2); cottage cheese and fruit cup (2); broccoli (0) and sour cream dip (2)
Total: 17 - not enough, but it's to make up for going over yesterday
Water: 3L
Activity: biggest loser cardio level 1 and 2
Tomorrow's goal? maybe be DOWN at WI (sure, during my bloated week too), maybe do the biggest loser workout.

I guess I should get some sleep if that's going to happen.

Good luck tomorrow... there's probably no hope for me (ahhh yes, listen to my sad sad song and feel sorry for me!)

I better kick it up a notch here...

everyone I talk to seems to be finding it difficult to find motivation... i don't know why this summer is so tough for myself and everyone around me. My day started out well... but then I went for sushi with Alex for dinner... you really don't realize how many points/calories can add up with sushi. all that rice i suppose... I managed to stay away from anything fried all together and tried to get mostly hand rolls... then i came home and ate CHOCOLATE CHIPS! What is up with that? I had a headache and despite taking 4 advils... by 9pm I gave up on any hope of my biggest loser workout.

What is wrong with me?


needless to say, no biggest loser workout today. I think I'm nervous to do it in the morning out of fear I won't have the energy for it... still, I can adapt. I can not try as hard until I get the swing of it for 6am workouts. I think I will try that.

Today's Summary (guessing though due to dinner out):
Breakfast - watermelon (1)
Lunch - salad with tuna (1), cheese (1), ff italian (1); yogurt (1); berries (1)
Dinner - handrolls (10), sushi (5)
Snack - chocolate chips (4)
Total: 25 (thank god I had eaten very light for breakfast and lunch otherwise today could have been a worse disaster)
Water: 3.5L
Activity - NIL (damn! bad girl!)

Tomorrow's goal: Biggest Loser cardio in AM! I CAN DO IT!!!

Where did the weekend go?

So long, farewell, I hate to say goodbye... my dear vacation. It was back to the reality that is the office today. It wasn't so bad actually. It has been crazy busy right up until this week. June was our busiest month all spring... whereas last year June started to slow right down. I hope we can start to catch a bit of a break and people stop having so many mental health issues (who am I to talk? haha!).

I didn't stay true to my word and post all weekend. Oh well. I'm here now.

I haven't done any exercise since you last saw me. Actually, I lie. I HADN'T done any. That is, until tonight. Did the biggest loser cardio tonight. Now, I am pooped and ready for bed!

Today's back to work summary:
breakfast - egg (2), watermelon (1)
Lunch - salad with chick peas 1/2c (2), cheese (1), veggies (0), ff italian 3 tbsp (1), yogurt (1), 2c berries (2), cheese string (1)
Snack - 2 cheese slices (1)... chocolate chips OOPS couple of tbsp (3), butterscotch chips OOPS AGAIN couple of tbsp (4)
Dinner- lettuce wraps with couscous 1/2c (3), salsa (0), chicken breast (3)
*light dinner due to all of that crap i snacked on earlier*
Total Points: 25
Water: 3L
Activity: Levels 1 and 2 of biggest loser cardio
Tomorrow's Goal: entire biggest loser workout in the AM... and remember to pay my car insurance!

Last *Official* Day of Vacation

Sigh

I didn't get time to post yesterday... the day was busy with things and then mom and dad came by for a quick visit and dropped off their dogs with me for the evening while they went to see Dirty Dancing... Then Alex and I went out for subs and I spent the rest of the evening trying to get Skittles to stop crying!!

Anyway, I didn't go to WI (like I had planned). I would have been up... but it's okay, this week I WILL be DOWN! I finally feel like I have control over my own appetite again. And, as if to really put myself to the test and possibly sabotage myself, I am going to Pontypool for the night. I'm taking my biggest loser DVD with me since I haven't had time yet today to do it... I'm planning on putting it on downstairs at mom and dad's and doing it later (maybe... grandma and poppa jim are coming for dinner and that can be exhausting sometimes... depending on how well grandma is doing).

Today I've been to Cdn Tire and Michaels... now I will head out and stop at a couple of places in Whitby and go home and maybe wash my car... do my biggest loser workout... and visit.

Today's summary so far (I will try to update from mom and dad's now that mom has HIGHSPEED!)
Breakfast - ww bagel (2), 1tbsp cheez whiz light (1)
Snack - smartpop (2)
Lunch - smart ones baked ziti (6)
Total Points: 11
Water: 1.5L
Activity: None (so far?)

Another day, another cake class

<----- This is my bear from today's cake class. Alex thinks it looks like an ewok. I think it's cuter than that! It's a chocolate cake with butter cream icing (just coloured brown). It was nice to go to a class in the middle of the day and not worry about it after work.

I realized today I have to buckle down with my portions. My heaping size tablespoon of Wendy and barb's skinny dip hummus jumped out at me like a sore thumb... and I realized I'm slipping... Even though I measure and weigh everything... it's when I measure a cup or a tablespoon... I let everything overflow just a little bit... like I think if it FITS on a tablespoon that means it actually IS a tablespoon. Yeah Jen... not so much.

The goals I set yesterday for today were accomplished. I like this daily goal thing... take it one day at a time. I did the entire biggest loser cardio max. I find level 3 (Kim's workout) a walk in the park compared to Jillian's.

Here's today's summary:
Breakfast - 2/3c smart bran (1), 1tbsp flaxseed meal (0), 1/2c skim milk (1)
Lunch - flatout (1), hummus (1), maple dale jalapeno cheese (1), lettuce and tomato (0), yogurt (1)
Dinner - chicken flatout quesadillas with 2 flatouts (2), 2oz chicken breast (2), allegro cheese (1), cheese string (1), peppers, onions, tomato (0), 4 tbsp light sour cream (1), strawberries and raspberries (1), watermelon (1), ff cottage cheese fruit cup (2)
Snack - popcorn (3)
Total points = 20
Water = 3L so far
Activity = 50min biggest loser cardio

Now to go watch the end of "X-Weighted". I missed the beginning of it so I will likely watch it again at 11pm since I don't have to get up early tomorrow. I am loving vacation... I already don't want to go back to work on Monday!

Good luck at weigh in... I am not going tomorrow. My regular leader is away and my parents are coming over for dinner before they go to Dirty Dancing. Time to cash in a missed meeting coupon!

Happy Canada Day 2008!

I have spent the day dealing with my bear cake. I have killed 1 cuddly bear (it's now in pieces in a bag for dad and Alex to eat the scraps) and have successfully baked another (so far!). It's cooling on the cooling rack and ready for me to carefully take to the class tomorrow. I'll take photos and post them later!

I woke up at 8am and chickened out of jogging in public. First, it's scary... second, I thought I might get bored since I don't own an iPod (yes, I am one of those rare people who do not have one yet/still!).

I DID, however, do the full biggest loser workout. My legs were sore afterwards, but it was great! The other things I wanted to get done today didn't happen (cleaning, taking out the recycling, laundry...). Now I'll spend the rest of the evening on my couch. It's a work night and Alex is exhausted from the last few busy weeks and weekends... so he is staying in. I miss the old days where the entire family would get together for fireworks in Fenelon Falls or at the lake. It's nights where I sit here alone that I miss them the most.

Here's my Tuesday wrap up:
Breakfast - 1c multi grain cheerios (2), 1/3c smart bran (0), 1/2c skim milk (1)
Lunch - quesadillas with 2 flatout wraps (2), peppers and onions (0), 60g allegro cheese (2), 2x 100 calorie snacks (4)
Dinner - salad with chicken breast (3), 1/4c chick peas (1), cheese (1), ff Italian (1), 2x 100 calorie packs (4)
Snack later - fruit (2) including watermelon, strawberries, raspberries and blueberries
Total points: 23
Water: 4L and counting! Thirsty today!
Activity: 50min Biggest Loser workout

Tomorrow's Goals: 50min Biggest Loser workout and only HEALTHY food (lean protein, vegetables, fruit, whole grain carbs only!)

Happy Canada Day to all!