All's well that ends well

My funky mood is over. I know my coworker is not DEAD and I WILL get to see her again. It was just shock. Too bad I sought comfort food in a footlong turkey sub and aero singles. Shall I be honest? I've eaten the whole box tonight. yep, 6 (yes, that's SIX) aero singles. I'm human. I have a week to recover... I'm not losing sleep over it!

Now, on to my THANK YOU TO TARA! It's in large part because of *THIS POST* that I'm feeling better.

Let me tell you something about my dear Tara. We have known each other for like 25 years (and we aren't even 30 yet!) and we've been through it all together. You name it - we've survived it together. You couldn't dream up a better friend... Tara is one of those rare friends who you can be yourself with... tell whatEVER is on your mind... confess whatever sin you've committed... and you just know she's not passing judgement... and is just going to be there for you regardless. Whether it be to pick you up when you're feeling down... or cry right along with you. She ROCKS!

I was down 2.0lbs... I'll take it.

Horrible, horrible day at work. The one person I truly enjoyed chatting with the most, and who I had the most in common with... well, she no longer works there. It was very sudden but apparently a mutual decision.

Regarldess, I'm bummed.

Perhaps next week I'll celebrate instead... because I WILL be down again next week

It's about that time again

Today's the day. Weigh in. I stepped on my scale and it has me down from last week but UP 0.2lbs from yesterday. That sucks. The problem is you never know by the end of the day where the scale will sit, how different it will be than mine at home... and also, let's face it - I weigh in at home wearing a LOT less than I'm allowed (or willing) to wear when weighing-in in front of people!

Good luck to me.

To Weight, or Not To Weigh.... Everyday?

I know I've heard you shouldn't weigh yourself everyday. I know we're told to only weigh once a week because your weight does fluctuate daily... but I've found that (for myself) if I weigh myself every day it helps keep me in check... then I'm not avoiding my weight and it reminds me I have to keep on top of it. I know you can become obsessed with your weight (hello! most of us are already anyway - we just don't develop an eating disorder per se)

What do you think?

I read a study Weigh Everyday to Keep Obesity Away. It makes sense to me (I can see both sides to the argument though).

So, I was good today. I went on the treadmill AND added weights. I think I reached some anaerobic status there... I thought I was going to vomit and pass out. I haven't had much of an appetite all day really, but once I forced myself to eat I did feel better.

I think I'm going to go for a fast walk on the treadmill this evening... since I didn't get on the treadmill yesterday.

My food today has been pretty sad (due to lack of appetite)
BF - shredded wheat and bran (1), multigrain Life cereal (2), skim milk (1)
L - apple (1), lettuce (0), salmon 1/2c (2), hellman's spritzer (0)

I can't even think about dinner... I think it will be soup... maybe eggs.. I don't know. It does feel like a 'breakfast-for-dinner' kind of day.

*ETA: I had tomato slices with real cheese and hummus (3) as well as veg soup (1?) for dinner. To give the soup a kick (it typically has a slightly sweet flavour) I added FRANK'S hot sauce and garlic. It was GOOOD! I think I STILL smell like garlic. Thank the lord I was here alone last night*

Happy Haunting everyone - stay away from those god awful Halloween Candy!!

Why do I do this to myself?

I'm exhausted AND brought junk/treats into the house. Great way to get ready for my Christmas goal!

Tonight was my last parent group for this installment (yay! nice parents, but i'm exhausted). I decided to take in treats for the final group (mini pecan tarts, apple cinnamon two bite thingys, and ginger snap cookies - those healthy ones in the shape of hearts). Only about 3 tarts got eaten. Where are all these desserts now? Here. In my place. On my kitchen table. Where I go several times a day. Somehow I've managed to NOT touch them tonight... and tomorrow, being the night before weigh in... hopefully I can keep it up. My goal is to take them to Pontypool on the weekend for my dad to enjoy (and Jacob since he'll be there too). We'll see if I can do it or if I'm setting myself up for sabotage.

My food today has been okay. As per a usual Tuesday, I'm below my points because I just don't have time to eat.

BF - LIFE multigrain cereal (2), shredded wheat and bran (1), skim milk (1)
L - romaine (0) and salmon (2) with hellman's spritzer asian silk flavour (0), yogurt (1), apple (1)
Snack - orange (1)
Dinner - chicken breast (3)
Snack at home when I FINALLY got home - 5 mini pitas (2), Wendy and Barb's Skinny dip baba ganoosh (1)

At least I remembered to watch Biggest Loser... Although, it seems like more than half the episode each week is spent weighing in. I'd like to see more of them working out and cooking and stuff... things for me to be able to apply to my own life.

Nonetheless, I think I'm in love

Snack Attack

Okay, so I decided on a snack.

sliced tomato with cheez whiz (1), although that didn't spread very well on tomato so I added a cheese slice (1) and 1tbsp hummus (0) and then 15 almonds (2)

Here you have it;



Oh, I double-checked on the hummus. I'm never exactly sure if 1 tbsp is 1 point or if it's 0 points. I make the WW hummus recipe and 1/4c is 2pts... sure enough, 1 tbsp is 0pts! At least now I know! 1tbsp works out to be like 22 calories but has 1.25g of fibre (and 0.5g of fat), so it's like 0.23pts technically... so I count that as 0 points!

I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want (sorry, listened to Spice Girls in the car)

Well, the power went out today JUST as I was about to go on the treadmill. For a moment I thought about just sitting on the couch and enjoying the quiet... but then I remembered I still have an old stairmaster here that does NOT require power... so I pulled the old stairmaster in front of my bedroom window and watched a police officer direct traffic at the intersection outside (the lights were out)... next thing you know, I had done it for AN HOUR! There was no power... which meant no tv, no internet and no distractions. I had nothing else I could do (any work I needed to do was on the computer)... so I climbed stairs! I may still be feeling it a little in my legs!

Not much else to report on today, so I'll get right to my menu

BF: shredded wheat (1) and life multigrain cereal (1) with skim milk (1) and 1 tsp brown sugar splenda (0)
Lunch: 2 ww tortillas (2). One had tuna (2), salsa (0) and a cheese slice (1). The other had cheez whiz (1), hummus (0), salsa (0). Tapioca (1) and 100 cal pack for dessert (2)
Snack: pink lady apple (1)
Dinner: harvest soup (1), chicken thighs (3), orange (1)
Snack - Not sure yet! I have some points for SOMETHING but I don't know what I want. Yes I do - it's PMS week and I want McDonald's fries and a McFlurry. But I just got home and there's no way in hell I'm going out anywhere... so I guess I'll find something to have. I'd like to avoid carbs this late at night. Crap. What to have?

A picture is worth 1000 words?

Here's my day summarized in one shot (and I'm sure I could come up with 1000 words/excuses for why my day has been like this)


BUT it's okay. My plan was to go on the treadmill after dinner. I did NOT plan on dinner not sitting well with me... however i do appear to be feeling better now and will go on the treadmill for at least a little while. my goal is 60min, but if i do 30min, i won't cry over it.



As for what I've eaten today... I've snacked a LOT. Maybe I'll return later and enter my intake... but for now, I must get on the treadmill!!

My book begins today, tomorrow is unwritten...

... but I AM the author. I decide how my story goes, ESPECIALLY when it comes to what I eat and my weight.

Okay, so I stole lyrics from Natasha Bedingfield because I heard the song on my way home from my SickKids shift... but it all applies.

Last night may be a bit of a write-off. When I look back and TRY to account for everything (including the celebration alcohol) I think I used about 20 flex points. Yikes. The good news? I have the week to recover, and that started today. I have stayed within my points and caloric intake as recommended by the daily plate website.

The fun stuff... what did I indulge in last night? (the shorter question would be what DIDN'T i indulge in?). The story goes as follows.

appetizer? baked goat cheese (i ate half the portion)
drink? italian soda - the special drink of the day that included about a dozen kinds of alcohol including lemon cello
another drink? green apple martini - followed by water
bread you say? yep, i ate half (maybe more) of the table bread AND the whipped butter
entree? I ordered the teriyaki chicken (REALLY GOOD!) and then I was very well behaved and requested the vegetables be steamed and not sauteed or anything... so I had steamed mushrooms and green beans.
I then ate birthday trifle at home later... followed by a 3am chapman's frozen yogurt craving. with chocolate chips. ahhh... honesty feels good.

Today is much better. We have
BF - 2 egg whites and egg beaters (1) with 2 tbsp salsa (0) and a banana (2)
AM Snack - cheese slice (1), 15 almonds (2), source yogurt (1)
Lunch - 2 slices ww bread (1), 1 slice had 1tbsp cheez whiz light (1), 1 tbsp hummus (0), salsa (0) while the other slice had 1tbsp blue menu almond butter (2) and 1 tbsp SF jam (1)
Snack - green apple (1)
Dinner - lean cuisine mango curry chicken (6)
later night snack (because saturday nights on the ward at the hospital becomes a food party) - i ate 5 mini-pitas (2), 1tbsp wendy and barb's baba ganoosh (1)

still, when I stepped on the scale tonight - here is what I found. So, tomorrow I know what I must do.

GOOD LUCK TOMORROW TARA! YOU MAKE ME SO PROUD!!!

It's officially Friday

Happy Birthday, Alex!

I love you. I hope you have the most special birthday ever, you deserve it. You're the best... I can't imagine my life without you now! (yes, I know you're about to throw up, just grant me one sentimental moment).

Chicklet loves you too... and so does Simon! Chicklet wants to give you a birthday lick... and Simon wants to share some drool with you!