Thank you, massage therapist!

Work is a little busy and stressful right now (although I think we're starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel)... it doesn't help that I'm trying to tie up loose ends for my parent group and sickkids is breathing down my neck (when I really just want time off until the new year now). So tonight, I went for a massage. I LOVE LOVE LOVE massages. I was feeling total pain for a bit (no pain, no gain - right?), but I take comfort in knowing that's because she's working on an area that really needs it.

So how was my day otherwise? I slept in this morning and by the time I made breakfast and lunch and did dishes I didn't have confidence in leaving for work on time if I went on the treadmill... so I just didn't bother.

Tonight, after my massage, I'm supposed to come home and rest... so how am I supposed to jog? The answer - I don't. What I did do was walk semi-quick uphill carrying weights for 45min. At least it's something.

Today's Intake:
BF - 2/3c smart bran (1), 1/2c skim milk (1), small banana (1) - side note: loving the small children's bananas you can buy at sobeys!!
Lunch - romaine (0), 3oz chicken breast (3), 5 pitted kalamata olives (1), red onion (0), red pepper (0), tomato (0), 30g skim milk mozzarella (2), 15 sprays hellman's balsamic (0), frank's hot sauce (0). apple (1).
Dinner - 2 eggs (4), 100ml egg whites (1), salsa and blue menu ketchup (0), ww bagel (2), applesauce 1c (1), source yogurt (1)
snack - 100cal fish things (2)

I'm enjoying my lunches this week. In one container I put baby romaine. In another container I mix my tuna/chicken with the cheese and vegetables and salad dressing, then when it's lunch time I put the mixture on top of the romaine. It's been really good!

Tonight i'm CRAVING SALT. I really really want some french onion soup from applebee's. oh well.

Wish me luck for tomorrow... we'll see if all my 100 calorie treats from Buffalo are going to be the death of me!!!

Thank you, Biggest Loser

I didn't get on the treadmill this morning. I was just too tired. But my solid 9hrs of sleep really did me well I think.

The good news is I got on the treadmill this evening. My plan was 40min before the biggest loser started. what I ended up doing was a whole hour... i was watching biggest loser and my motivation soared. i ran with weights for half the time too!


Was anyone else glad with the results of the biggest loser? I just feel like Amy didn't want it as bad as Bryan... I'm not quite sure where Amy gets off blaming her team for being 'backstabbers' when she herself abandonned her own team (that being the red team). maybe i'm missing something.

Today's menu?
BF - 2/3c shredded wheat and bran (2), 2/3c smart bran (1), small banana (1), 1/2c skim milk (1)
Lunch- romaine lettuce (0), 1/2c tuna (2), 30g light cheese (2), red onion (0), tomato (0), red pepper (0), 5 pitted kalamata olives (1), Hellman's spritzer - balsamic (0), apple (1)
Snack - apple (1)
Snack #2 - WW bagel and 1 cheese slice (3)
Dinner - chicken thighs, 3oz (3), ww english muffin (1), 2 cheese slices (1), soup (0 - had a few tablespoons and it didn't taste good to me so I stopped eating it and have thrown the rest out because I know I won't eat it)

I was going to eat a snack during biggest loser but i still don't have an appetite after the soup didn't sit right with me... so, i didn't bother eating.

Happy Hump Day tomorrow!

Something's gotta give

I need to kick myself in the butt!

I was lazy yesterday and that has translated over to today. I did go for a jog for 30min this morning but I was just so tired I couldn't go any longer. I intended on walking this evening... but not getting home from work until 9pm just isn't conducive to doing any form of exercise.

I have to STOP eating my cool 100 calorie packs from the States. These things are a rare commodity... not something to eat every day!!!

Hopefully tomorrow is different. I think standing in line at the border wore me out... I'm still exhausted and thought I was going to fall asleep on the way to work today, while at work, and while driving home... I think I may as well just go to bed now actually!

Cross your fingers I can get on the treadmill tomorrow morning!

Day of Rest

It's Sunday. Even God rested one day a week... that is my rationale for resting today myself. I've gotten all of my stuff organized and put away from the big shopping trip to the states yesterday. I did the dishes, vacuuming, washed the floors, took out the garbage, took down the recycling... and here I am.

I may get on the treadmill later... if only for a walk even.

Happy day of rest to everyone!

It's the Most Wonderful STARBUCKS Time of the Year!

the holiday flavours are back at starbucks!!! and my FAVOURITE latte in the WORLD, the gingerbread latte, MAY be available in sugar free here in canada. I'm not sure. it has it on the american website but i'm not sure if they have it here... if not, it's 5 points for a grande as opposed to 3pts...

regardless, christmas season is around the corner when these wonderful drinks are back in my life!!!

*ETA* Okay, the starbucks near me are all jerks who wouldn't answer their phones so I called the new one out in Whitby and a very lovely lady answered the phone and informed me... GINGERBREAD LATTES ARE NOW SUGAR FREE THIS YEAR! (well, you have the option of getting sugar free). She said if you have it sugar free and make it with nonfat milk it's only like 120 calories for a grande (THAT'S ONLY 2PTS ACTUALLY! 2.4PTS!!) (but the nutritional information should be online). She was kind enough to tell me what flavours are sugar free now: vanilla, hazelnut, caramel, cinnamon dolce, and gingerbread. I'll definitely try cinnamon dolce too (it's the only other one i haven't had), but since gingerbread is only around during christmas - that's what I'll be getting from now on!

A Semi-Miracle on Don Mills Rd

I was only up 0.6lbs. I realize I'm up... but hey, if that's the consequence from indulging on my own birthday - i'll take it. I can survive this one!

Now, on to my turkey breast subway during Ugly Betty and Grey's! I think some 100 cal chips ahoy are in order as well.

The new week starts tomorrow, I have the day off, my car will be in the shop... I will get my butt on the treadmill!!!!

No miracles here

I don't weigh in officially at WW until this evening. But my scale today shows me up at least 1lb. We'll see what it says by the end of the day!

I'll still wish myself good luck... in case i manage to lose over a pound throughout the day today!!!!

Next!

This week is a write-off... I think I just have to move on and look forward to doing well next week.

I have headaches every day... my guess is it's the change in weather. I had this last year at this time actually.

I'm exhausted... (or lazy? I honestly can't tell the difference right now. Is it psychological or physical?)

I think i'll take some advil and see if I can't at least get for a walk on the treadmill during America's next top model. I hope my headache goes away. It's killing me!

After the treadmill I shall make my shopping list for the weekend!!!

I still want grease. I'm still resisting.








food pictures courtesy of The Food Pornographer

*Update at 8:35pm. My headache is not going away. I have decided tonight I shall take it easy and lie on the couch. Ship happens and this one has sailed. Next week will be different*

Going to JunkFood Town. Won't you join me?

All I want is JUNK food. I'm craving grease and LOT'S of it. I want to be lazy. I want to lie on the couch with my fast/greasey food... and lose weight while I'm at it.

I've avoided anything bad since Sunday... but such a huge part of me wants to skip WI this week and have a bad week for my birthday... but I know that's how it starts. The downward spiral to fat city. I'm reminded of my goal and the fact that there's only 49 days to reach my goal. (ha!)

I had a headache this morning and didn't go on the treadmill. I haven't eaten dinner so I'm going on the treadmill now and going to eat dinner during the biggest loser. Dinner is eggs. It's rainy. It's dreary. It's a breakfast for dinner kind of day.

Today's menu:
BF - 1c. raisin bran (3), 1 small banana (1), 1/2c skim milk (1)
L - chicken thigh (3), veg soup (0), apple (1), 3c smartpop (1)
Snack - orange (1)
I feel like I've eaten more than that. I must be missing something. Too bad I'm not writing down what I'm eating this week... I've just been tracking it on the daily plate website.

Here's what I've got to do to my treadmill to get some motivation. Except I'll add the number 6 combo from Wendy's (spicy chicken sandwich with a cheesy baked potato)

Bday Wknd + PMS = 10lbs

That's a nasty formula!

I haven't ACTUALLY stepped on the scale yet to know what the results of my weekend are, but I'm sure it's NOT pretty. I did really well up until Saturday NIGHT. I went home Friday and stayed within my points and avoided all temptation (which is great, normally I cave the minute I walk through the door). Saturday I did really well and avoided allllll the goodies and munchies mom had out all day. I did well at dinner except that I decided to have a whole wheat bun after all (that wasn't my plan). I stayed away from the chocolate cake (although it was a ww recipe) and had the ff trifle mom had made. then we went back to playing alex's wii and i boxed and worked up QUITE a sweat (side note: 2 days later and my arms are STILL sore). then i went back and had another bowl of trifle. then i went back and had another bowl of trifle. then i went back and had another glass of champagne (and if anyone wanted to count the alcohol i had - 1 blender drink kristen made, some fruit and YUMMY and high point thing, 3 glasses of champagne). that's it, my day was done...oh wait, except for the bowl of baked cheetos my mom had out. I'm sure i packed away a few pounds worth of those. that's when i had hit the point of NOT caring because it's MY BIRTHDAY.

basically yesterday was the same story. started out with great intentions. wanted chocolate cake. screwed my calories/points... ate whatever i want.

the good news in it all is my birthday is over with... i'm back to routine and my plan. i'm going to step on the scale in a bit and realize the damage done and deal with it. i'm actually excited to see what the rest of the week can look like. actually, i'm excited because it's only 50 DAYS TIL CHRISTMAS!! i will take ownership for the scale and will move on!

My plan of attack is the TREADMILL the rest of the week! I've also taken veg soup out of the freezer and chicken... I'll have lot's of fruit and veg's and fish and chicken this week to recover!

here's some photo highlights from the weekend