Life is Good...

it's all good! well, besides the fact that my weight didn't change this week... (could be worse)... what's more important is.... ALEX IS HOME! yay yay yay!!! sometimes you don't realize how much you'll miss someone until they're actually gone... i fully understand this. i just feel so much happier knowing he's back in the city. it sounds like he had a fun trip... and he's home safe... and he's rested.... and had a good time... and that's what i care about! and the fact that HE'S HOME!!!

so, i realized this weekend that going to mom and dad's (aka HOME) is a good idea... i definitely stay on track while in pontypool... mom helps me with that and i'm more accountable with others around all weekend.

i'm working a 12hr day tomorrow, but 8hr days wed and thurs... i'll post menus then. for now - i need to HIT THE SACK!

this is shrinking jen, signing off. good night and god speed.

Someone Kick Me In the Butt... Please!!!!

i need a serious kick in the butt to get on the treadmill. If you'll notice my ticker... Michele and Jacob's wedding is only basically FOUR MONTHS away! let me share something with you....

<-- according to MVM.com this was me at my biggest <--- and this is me now. not a huge change considering i've lost 50lbs

<--- at this rate, this is where i'll be by the wedding. not small enough.

<--- i realistically COULD be here by the wedding if i do work HARD!


<--- and this is my WW target. I can't imagine being that small



Wednesday's Menu

Breakfast
*cream of wheat (2)

Snack - AM
*strawberries (1)

Lunch
*1/2 cup fat free cottage cheese (2)
*grape tomatoes (0)
*black pepper (0)

snack - PM
*WW cereal, individual servings from costco (2)
*1/2 cup skim milk (1)

Dinner
*chicken breast (3)
*steamed broccoli w/ garlic (0)

OR i'll give in to my constant sushi craving and have...
*sushi, 16 pieces (8)


*** i realize i haven't planned on eating my points today but that's because i've gone over every other day this week, i'd like to be under today and tomorrow (before weigh in... which might not be pretty!)


Have a good day, everyone. I miss Alex. It's so corny, but I have realized time and time again in the past year and a half or so... that he is totally and completely my best friend. I can say anything to him... and i do say anything and everything to him. just ask him!!! he'll be back from mexico on sunday night... only 4 more days!!!

it's 4:30 in the AM... are YOU sleeping?

4:30 in the morning. i'm at work. the rest of the world, or most of it, is sleeping... or so it feels to me. and here i am... working. i don't think shift workers get enough recognition. on fridays, everyone is so happy it's friday... they tell you "have a good weekend"... i hate hearing that when i have to WORK all weekend.

and noise by-laws only reflect the mon-fri people... i agree we need noise by-laws at night... especially when children have to sleep in order to get up for school and be well rested... but then during the day, who is protecting the people who are trying to sleep because they work nights? i'll tell you.... nobody! once i was trying to sleep for a night shift and the apt above me was sanding their floors... shook my whole apartment... it was horrible.

i try not to eat on night shifts, but i caved tonight. i ate a piece of cheese... okay, 2 pieces of cheese... and a minigo yogurt. i'm not even sure how many points minigos are.

after tonight's shift i'm off for 6 days. my plan of attack is to hit the treadmill tomorrow evening.... and then hardcore, TWICE on wednesday... and then again thursday morning... then have weigh-in on thursday.

maybe i should do a plan of a menu for tomorrow: (tuesday's menu)

Breakfast
*cream of wheat (2)
* jam (0)

Lunch
*1/2 cup fat free cottage cheese (2)
*grape tomatoes (0)
*black pepper (0)

Dinner
*sushi, 14 pieces (7)

**** plus food from tonight's shift... 2 pieces cheese (6), minigo (2) . plus 1.5 litres of water!!!!

Nights... not good for the weight loss!

i'm working nights right now. my last one is tonight, then i don't work more for a month... but still.... working them is definitely harder for weight loss. i just don't allow myself to eat during the night shift... although there are times when you feel like you could fall asleep... and eating a little something would help keep you awake... i choose to just drink crystal light instead.

i have resolved to not do a menu for my nights... basically when i get home from work i have a bowl of cereal... when i get up during the afternoon... i eat what i feel like. today i'll have a frozen dinner i think. maybe perogies. see? who knows!

all i know is i HATE nights. the light at the end of my tunnel? after tonight, i'm off for SIX WHOLE DAYS! i can't wait!!! and at the end of those 6 days off, i'm back to the grind.... but ALEX WILL BE HOME! so at least that's something for me to look forward to even though i'll be back to hell!!!

i have an interview tomorrow. wish me luck!

have i mentioned i miss alex? 6 more days until he's home! (he gets home late on sunday night).

stress... food... more stress... more food

well, my stress level has hit an all-time high it seems. work is entirely burning me out. the good news in all of this? a year or more ago i would have dealt with my stress by eating... and i just realized that i'm not doing that now. i see that as a positive thing!!!

so, okay... it's thursday, weigh-in day... and we all know what that means... starve yourself until after weigh-in. so what did i decide to try today? wendy's. yup.... haven't eaten fast food in a year... i had a spicy chicken sandwich (which IS a burger), and a baked potato... with cheese. have you ever heard that awful rumour that when your body isn't used to grease it rejects the food you've just eaten? or punishes you by requiring you to stay near your bathroom at all times? i figured my body would NEVER do that to me. i was wrong. my new-found healthy body rejected my wonderful wendy's meal. i'm feeling better now... but i don't think i'll be going back to greasey food in any less than a year!!! next week, back to subway on my thursday night!!! or maybe a pizza slice... hmmmm....

so i can plan tomorrow's menu... but i'm going out to dinner with people from work (happy CYC week by the way). but i'll post my plans up until dinner.

Friday's Menu

Breakfast
* cream of wheat (2)
* jam (0)

Snack
*3/4 cup fat free, plain yogurt (2)
*jam (0)
*spenda (0)

Lunch
*1/2 cup fat free cottage cheese (2)
*grape tomatoes (0)
*cucumber (0)
*black pepper (0)

*** this leaves me with plenty of points for dinner. I'm anticipating i'll have a salad... but with cheese and chicken on it or something... and i plan to have one beer (but no more, i'm driving..)

happy luke skywalker day, everyone!

may the 4th be with you!

Oh, how I miss thee...

You know what foods I miss... but am too afraid to ever go back to indulging in? here's a list... let me know if there's foods you miss.... or would miss if you chose to give them up...

1. pizza hut pizza
2. french fries - either from a pub/restaurant or chip truck! i LOVE fries.
3. buffalo chicken fingers from shoeless joe's - used to get them every week with alex! not good!!!
4. big ol' chocolate bars
5. nachos... with extra cheese on them
6. chinese food - only miss that sometimes though.
7. chicken pad thai
8. quiznos subs
9. cheesy baked potato from wendy's
10. spicy chicken sandwich from wendy's

and i think that's all for now... as i have cravings i will be sure to update this list!!

everyone, please wish me luck for weigh-in tomorrow! my eating has been messed up today due to not feeling well... but i have my appetite back now, let's hope i can control it through the evening!

sick...

i hate being sick. i really do. i left work today and felt sore all over, but figured it was just because of how busy i was at work today. here it is, 3:30am and i'm wide awake... i'm sore all over, my eyes hurt... and my throat feels like i was just screaming at a concert all night... and i'm nauseated. what is up with that? finally by 3am, when i realized i could only get 2.5hrs of sleep before work... i made the dreaded sick call to work. i hate doing that. they're so short staffed all the time on the unit... i hate inconveniencing anyone. such is life i suppose...

i was told today by someone very special that they read this thing on a regular (possibly daily) basis... big shout outs to that person... you know who you are... you rock.

i took gravol 10min ago and it's still not taking effect... this is nuts.

i hope the rest of the world is sleeping well and feeling well right now. i hate not feeling well... hate it. the stress that comes with calling in sick to work only makes being sick feel 10X worse.

sleep tight everyone.... maybe i'll be there soon myself!

Is it Friday yet??

I can't believe how tired I am. Work is too much... I'm exhausted!!!

Today's menu was the same as yesterday's, which will be the same as tomorrow's. This is what happens when you work 3 12hr day shifts in a row... you make a bit batch of chili and mexican rice and eat it all week long!!

If anyone can tell me how to get rid of my sweet tooth during times of stress... please share! I'm able to resist temptation so far... but I'd love to not have any temptation to resist!!!

Peace out, homes.

Manic Monday

What a long day. Glad it's over. I'm beat... I'm going to bed... for tomorrow's menu, please refer to today's, because when I get up tomorrow morning... I'm just going to pack the same things I did today!!!

Although, tomorrow I will NOT have a tim horton's muffin if they get brought onto the unit for CYC Week!!!

Good night, and God speed!!