Happy Birthday my pup!!

Well, my dear Chicklet turns 6yrs old today. She has definitely been a great addition to my life... Nobody will ever love me like she does. I wish I could make her feel as loved as she does for me!!

Anyway, on to today. Let's cut to the chase... no treadmill. Alarm went off at 6am and I decided I needed sleep... so that is exactly what I did.

Here's what I ate today:
Breakfast: oatmeal (2), yogurt (1), apple (1)
Lunch: pasta (3), tuna (2), cheese (2), ff miracle whip (1), yogurt (1), fruit salad (2)
Snack: snap peas (0), cheese string (1)
Dinner: chicken (3), cheese (2), spaghetti squash (0), veg soup (0)
Total: 21
Water: 3L

Snaps for me... I'm baking tonight and have not done anything more than lick the spoon with cake batter on it!! I am sick of looking at icing right now!!

Tonight I have managed to watch biggest loser while baking... I wanted to be in bed by 10pm... I will take about 10min to ice some heart-shaped red velvet cupcakes (cream cheese icing)... and try to do most of the dishes quickly... and still try to be in bed by 10:30... and try for the treadmill tomorrow!!!

Staying positive

Well, Poppa Jim is safely back in his hometown hospital... he was lethargic today and refused to eat (for the RN's and for my aunt) and appeared annoyed... I can't blame him. He didn't get back to his home hospital until the wee hours of the morning... He is tired and cranky. He must be feeling bummed out by now and frustrated that when he tries to speak... the words can't come out. I feel bad for him. He is a fighter though, I have hopes for him! Can you tell how much I love my Poppa??? He is such a wonderful and kind person!!

So, I got myself on the treadmill today... yay. I did intervals and at one point felt like my legs may fell off, but I think that's what I needed.

Here's what I ate:
Breakfast - fruit salad (1), 1/2c all bran (1), yogurt (1)
Lunch - smart ones ravioli (5), yogurt (1)
snack - popcorn (3)
dinner - 0pt soup (0), chicken breast (3), spaghetti squash (1), tomatoes (0), yogurt (1)
Snack at home - sugar cookie pieces (?3)
Total: 20
Water: 5L

I have already made my lunch for tomorrow and planned what I will wear... I will now retire for the night and hopefully get on the treadmill in the morning... tuesdays are hard!

Tara: Kristen has a gazelle!! I think when I've used it long enough I do feel it in my butt the next day!

Happy Tuesday... I am off on Friday, but have a very busy week up until then... so I just have to get through the next 3 days!! At least it's a LONG weekend and I am NOT working (I took Valentine's weekend off!).

Roller Coaster Ride

Today is one of those days... My day started out with a phone call that things were not looking good for Poppa Jim... he was deteriorating and they thought they was more blood on the brain... i was done. I couldn't get myself out of bed except to be sick because I was so upset... Then we get the call that the catscan results came back and there was no blood on the brain... but his brain was swollen... so, they shipped him off to st mike's where he is now. when he got there the staff discovered he was totally dehydrated so they hooked up an IV and they saw improvements immediately... now we are waiting for results from a CT scan to figure out what is going on.

My plans for today changed. No treadmill. No appetite either... I did do some baking for work though.

Here's what I had today:
Breakfast/lunch - fruit salad (2), apple (1), leftover veggies (0)
Snack - cheese string (1), popcorn (3)
Total: 7
Water: 1L

i thought about dinner a couple of hours ago but haven't been hungry and don't have the energy to make anything.

I'll end with some photos from yesterday's hard work with my veggies:

NEW FOOD FINDS!!

You can imagine my pleasant surprise when I was browsing through my Superstore this morning and found the following NEW and EXCITING products!! Now... if we could only get all the crystal light flavours and flatout wraps here...







Now I'm off to cut up my vegetables (so they are easy to grab and steam/cook during the week) and make some 0pt vegetable soup!! I may get time for the treadmill before work... I might not... I won't freak out if I don't.

Happy weekend!!

Great and greater

I got up today and got myself on the treadmill! It felt great!! I have to go back to getting to bed at a decent time so I can get up earlier in the morning. I only went on for 30min... but it's a start.


I'm now waiting for Alex to get here so we can go grab dinner from the foodcourt (chicken and vegetables for me)... and then come home, watch a movie and play some Wii!!

So, the good news is I went on the treadmill. The GREAT news is Poppa Jim is back at the Lindsay hospital! My mom sent me photos of his scar (Aunt Linda took photos while visiting him)... it's the craziest scar on someone's head... I'm sure doctors/RNs/hospital staff see these scars all the time... but I don't! Regardless, he is back home for his rehab and we are all happy. My grandma is extremely happy to be able to go see him... she has missed him a lot.

This weekend will consist of grocery shopping tomorrow, then working an afternoon shift. Sunday will be "working from home" (baking)... I'm not sure how if I'll get to Lindsay or not... just like it's been all week... things could change at the drop of a hat.

Here's what I've eaten today
Breakfast: oatmeal (2), yogurt (1)
Lunch: lettuce wraps with chick peas (2), spoonful of black beans (0), salsa (0), cheese slices (1)... yogurt (1), fruit salad (1), angel food cake (2)
Snack: angel food cake (2)
Total so far: 12

Dinner (planned): chicken 4/5?, veggies (0)

Happy weekend!
**Just received confirmation that Poppa Jim is safely in his Lindsay bed!!**

Let's start the new week off right...

"Nothing will work unless you do" Nothing will work unless I do.

I have already made my lunch for tomorrow. My menus are done (with some tweaking tomorrow maybe).

I have taken my melatonin to help me get to sleep tonight. I am already going to head to bed. I am going to leave my computer in the living room so I'm not tempted to surf in bed.

It's going to be a good week.

Play by play / Results

Going to WW now! My honest to God prediction is I will be up 5lbs... more than what I weighed following Christmas. It's okay, I won't freak out. I will remedy this.

I will be back... and I have begun the game plan for recovery week - starting TOMORROW!!

I am back... I was up 4.2lbs. Not good. Unfortunately... I am not upset by this. How can I be upset when a week ago we didn't know if I would still have my Poppa Jim? He is doing well and may come home by the weekend!! I am back on track.


Here is what I vow to do:
Make my meal plans for the next week
Make my grocery list accordingly
Get back on the treadmill in the mornings
NOT push myself to get in 2 workouts a day... if it happens, it happens
TRACK everything... back to writing everything in my tracker WHEN I eat it (haven't tracked for about a week now)

I can totally do it!! I have EVERY reason to succeed. Life is good!!

I am off to eat my sub. Here's todays food:
BF - bagel (2), cheese slice (1)
Dinner - turkey sub (12)
Snack during Grey's - popcorn (3)

TARA - you can totally use me for your passport!!! I'm actually excited for us to kick each other's butts and get on track this week! Way to go on your last minute save on your week!!!! So awesome!! I can't believe you haven't found the vitalicious muffins! At the stores I look at they are in the freezer section with the vegetarian/healthy stuff... but let me know if you don't find them and I will bring some with me when I come visit you in March!! Do you ever go to Walmart Superstore at 401 and Stevenson in Oshawa? They have the McCain singles and the vitalicious muffins there!

Ready or not...

Well, I'm not ready... but weigh in day is coming regardless.

I have decided to start planning for next week (how often have we heard that?). I am coming up with my meal plans for the week (beginning Friday) and will grocery shop accordingly.

I made the mistake of taking my B12 vitamin before bed last night. NEVER AGAIN! It really woke me up!! I can take a B complex before bed, but not the straight up B12... I was up until 3am. How did I remedy my fatigue this morning? Coffee and more B12! It made for a great day!!

Here's what I ate today
Breakfast: fruit salad (2), yogurt (1)
Lunch: chicken breast (3), steamed veggies (0), fruit salad (1), cheese (2)
Dinner: 6 egg whites (2), steamed peppers (0), cheese (2), yogurt (1), angel food cake muffin (2)
Dessert at lunch and dinner: chocolate milk (6)
Total: 22
Water: 4L (plus maybe one more)

Good luck tomorrow. i will not have favourable results, but what can you do? I will still reach goal weight this year!!

Tara: I hereby KICK thee and me in the BUTT!

Okay... this is ridiculous. I can stay on track for what... 1 week? I realize last week I was under the weather and had some stress... and this week I have huge stress, but really? It's no excuse. Why can't I be one of those people who LOSE their appetite during stressful times? Friday afternoon when I got the call about my Poppa Jim... I felt sick and had no appetite... that has since changed. Today, I am a bottomless pit!! I don't even know what to say... I can make all the excuses in the world, but that isn't getting the job done.

Tara... we both need to get ourselves in order here!! I at least have a treadmill... but we both have exercise tapes and we both know how to make good food choices. We need to inspire each other here!!! As a friend, I will try to do that in the upcoming days/weeks/months!!

I have some photos today!!

First... some NEW FINDS!! McCain singles... the cupcakes are 2pts and the cheesecakes are 3pts. I have tasted both tonight... they are good.



Next... some food. Some peppers cut up and pretty. Also, my dinner tonight (chicken, black beans, salsa, sour cream and cheese in a lettuce wrap... and some steamed veggies with sea salt).


I didn't even write down what I ate today... so, I'm going to try to be honest and tell you what I had. I thought about not posting because I'm ashamed of how much I've eaten... but, here it goes

Breakfast: oatmeal (2), yogurt (1)
Lunch: healthy pizza (5), fruit salad (2), yogurt (1), lemon angel food cake (2)
Dinner: lettuce wraps with chicken and cheese (4), veggies (0)
Snacks: 2 cheesecake singles (6), 3 singles cakes (6), popcorn (3)
Total: 32. Are you kidding me? This is why I need to track as I go along during the day...
Water: 4L

FYI - apparently I lied about the angel food cake recipe yesterday. you have to use LIGHT pie filling, not just any pie filling!! Luckily my lemon pie filling happens to be light... but the blueberry is not. I'll donate that to a foodbank and make sure I only buy light pie filling!

Biggest Loser anyone? Joelle is driving me nuts!! Carla's anger is not attractive to me either... I understand she is frustrated, but let's show some class on national tv, shall we?

(I am watching Biggest Loser and just saw a commercial for the McCain singles!! haha!)

Happy Wednesday. I may starve myself tomorrow to do some drastic damage control before weigh in!!

Emotional Eating at its BEST!

The good news? Poppa Jim continues to improve. They found more blood on the brain... which is concerning. They did another operation on him today, but his symptoms continue to improve. Apparently it's not uncommon for someone his age (a young and ripe 79!) to have more bleeding after the first operation. Stacey and Aunt Faye are with him today and tomorrow and they are very pleased with how he looks. He recognized Stacey immediately and his speech is improving (it was slow).

The weekend was full of ups and downs... and lot's of eating. I literally stopped keeping track of what I was eating. My weight this morning... not pretty. It's back to the highest it was after Christmas. I feel a little hopeless.... this stress is not going away any time soon (after popppa jim gets better more stress will start with what will happen to my grandma and poppa jim)... i'm just going to have to adjust. I have to recall that I have to reach goal weight this year.

I haven't been tracking (in a WW tracker) what i've eaten this week (Fri, Sat, Sun or Mon)... but I can tell you what I ate today.

BF - skipped it. Was running late for a meeting
Lunch - healthy pizza (same veggie pizza I made before) (5), fruit salad (2), yogurt (1)
Dinner - lettuce wraps with chicken breast (3), cheese (2), salsa (0), spoonful of black beans (0), 1 tbsp ff sour cream (0), yogurt (1), snap peas (0)
Snack - lemon angelfood cake x2 (4)
Total: 18

Lemon angelfood cake you ask? My mom printed off a recipe last weekend from WW that I wanted to try... mix fruit pie filling with angelfood cake mix and bake. It's 2pts for 1/24th of the cake. My mom and I made it with raspberry pie filling... I'm not so crazy about the raspberry seeds in my teeth. The recipe recommended blueberry pie filling. Tonight I made it with lemon pie filling... and I baked it in 24 muffin tins... so I have cupcakes!