GOOD JOB, TARA! YOU ROCKED THIS WEEK!! You're well on your way to that goal!!!

My day has started off rocky... but I CAN recover still.

I woke up wide awake at 5:30 and had my breakfast... but then fell asleep on the couch. I woke up later than I would like AND had a sweets craving (and gave in!). So here's what my day is shaping up like, food wise;

Breakfast - ww bagel (2), 1 tbsp PB (2)... followed by TWO (read: not ONE but TWO) cheesecakes (2).

Lunch (due to sleeping and NOT making one) - WW smart ones rigatoni and cheese (6)

Dinner - I think it's SUSHI tonight! Followed by the movie "Knocked Up".

The good news in this all? For a brief moment I thought about not being honest and ignoring I had eaten those cheesecakes... but then I'd be on my way to my old patterns and habits that I've been working hard to break... SO, I'm taking the high road and being honest about it all.

Tomorrow is treadmill then heading to Pontypool (a HUGE challenge for me... all the food at mom's house and me having to make an effort to measure/weigh things and count points... this will be tough. Time to recall that feeling of pride I felt when I declined the chocolate cake at work here a couple of weeks ago!!)

The Results are IN!

I'm down 0.6lbs this week. At least I'm down... but I would have liked to have been down more. If I want to reach this goal of mine by Christmas I definitely have my work cut out for me... But I refuse to lose sight of the goal!!

I bought 12 weeks worth of coupons and got the free dessert cookbook. I'll look through the book and post a good recipe at some point!!

Tonight I've had a 12" turkey sub and a chocolate fix bar and am going to have a cheesecake and some sugar free cookies with Ugly Betty and Grey's.

Tomorrow's FRIDAY! YAY!!

Good luck tomorrow Tara!! You'll do GREAT!!!

Hump Day... with an update

Well, I appear to have survived my parent group unscathed! The group went pretty well, I have no complaints. Now I don't have to be as anxious next week.

I'm at work and can't even remember what I ate yesterday... but here's what I'm eating today:

Breakfast: 1c raisin bran (2), 1/2c skim milk (1), 10 almonds (2)

Lunch: corn and black beans (3), tomato (0), salsa (0), chicken (1) and light cheese (2). yogurt (1)

Dinner: I'm thinking breakfast for dinner tonight... an omelet or something.

Note to self - REMEMBER: NO TRISCUITS the night before weigh in!!

I got on the treadmill this morning, despite being extremely tired!!! Tonight's plan is to maybe go for an uphill walk on the treadmill for my 'last chance workout'... but if I'm too tired, I'm not going to kill myself over it.

Tara - I can't comment on your blog from my 'secret location'... but what is this about a night shift? I hope this really is your LAST one!!!

Happy Hump Day!

*Update*
So, I didn't go on the treadmill. I'm exhausted tonight for some reason. I've been like this all day. I could have fallen asleep driving to work today. Soooo... I don't normally go on the treadmill on Thursdays, but I'm going to tomorrow... since I missed Tuesday this week.

I managed to stay away from the triscuits tonight! (yay!)... BUTTTTTTT... I did eat 2 sugar free shortbread cookies and 2 other peak freen lifestyle cookies... the high in fibre cranberry ones. Hopefully that won't be toooooo bad for tomorrow.

Dinner tonight - mushrooms, red onion, red pepper, green pepper, tomato (0), egg (2), egg whites (1), cheese (2). SF jello (1), kozy shack tapioca (1), cookies (4).

Crap. I just remembered I also ate 2 fig newtons (1). I don't know WHY I'm so TIRED and HUNGRY tonight. I guess it's a good thing I went on the treadmill this morning... AND will go on tomorrow. I'm not convinced I'll have a loss tomorrow at this point.

Oh well, C'est la vie... onward and upward if I'm UP tomorrow!

Mundane Monday

So today the treadmill kicked my ass. I was so tired (I think maybe I was just lazy to be honest).

Tomorrow I start my parent groups - don't EVEN get me started on that. I could throw up. I'm too nervous.

Here's my day full of food:

Breakfast: 1c shredded wheat n' bran (2), 1/2c skim milk (1), 10 almonds (2)

*insert 30min jog here*

Lunch: 2 ww wraps (2), some of that mexican chicken leftover from the other night (2), light cheese (2), source yogurt (1), 100cal kitkat bar (2)

Dinner (here at work - I'm working til 8 tonight): tuscan crab salad with lettuce, green pepper, red pepper, green onion, cucumber, shredded carrot (0), light feta (2), 2/3c crab meat (2), 3 tbsp ff italian drsg (0). ww bagel (2) with 1/2 tbsp light cheez whiz (0), yogurt (1), pear (1)

I'm going to scoot out from work as soon as I can tonight and get home to watch dancing with the stars. I have no idea which stars are even on it this season. I'm going to likely have popcorn while watching it and prepare for my group.

I heard on the radio today that John Tory wants to bring alcohol to *some* corner stores. Can someone please tell me the benefits of doing this? Because I honestly am not comprehending what they would be - and I would like to be enlightened.

Tara - REST UP! Your body is telling you that it needs some REST!!! Just enjoy some quality time with your couch and a blanket and the TV!!!! Have you been to see your new doctor yet?

Like my new look?

Okay, so I was getting pretty tired of the look of my blog... I mean, I had used it for well over a year.

Somehow I came across a website where you have a million layouts to choose from and all you do is get the code, come to your blog and go to the template tab... and paste the new code where the html stuff goes (erase the old one)... this site has a million layouts! I am loving the one I have now... but I think I already want to switch to a thanksgiving/halloween one!

the website is: Pyzam.com

Maybe I'll keep this for a few days and then switch... the sky is the limit with that website! yay!!!

Okay, hopefully I will post more later... from my secret site. (heehee!).

Time for the treadmill then work from 1-8pm. Happy Monday from Chicklet and me!

My potentially challenging day

Today was girls' day with my friend/old roommate, Jess. We can be quite a pair when together... we definitely enable each other to make poor food choices. We are really good at justifying junk food for each other.

So I prepared for my day by going for a half hour jog... and ate healthy. I'm happy to report I really didn't use any flex points. Here's my day (food wise):

Breakfast: ww bagel (2), 2 egg whites (0), cheese slice (1), BM ketchup (0)

Lunch: 1pc rye bread (1), 2 tsp light cheese whiz (0), tomato slice (0)

Junk food with Jess: 14 real fruit candies (4), 100cal kit kat bar (2), 100cal popcorn (1)

Dinner (bourbon street grill from the food court) - my best guess: grilled chicken (4), rice - which is steamed and I'm guessing was 1 1/2 cups (6), steamed veg's (0). Kit kat bar (2)

I utilized chewing gum the rest of the evening in order to cope with any cravings that lingered... it was the sugar free freedent gum in bubble gum flavour.


Babysitting was SO MUCH FUN yesterday! I swear, if I knew my kids would be as easy as Simon... I would have a dozen of them and I would start now! He did not cry ONCE. Literally. He took the bottle so easily (which is good, because he's a breast fed baby).... he burped easily, fell asleep, went in the jolly jumper, enjoyed his bumbo seat, went for a walk with us to pizza hut to get our EDGE VEGGIE PIZZA for dinner... it was so great. Alex and I both cannot wait to babysit again soon.

Now I must go figure out how to prepare for my parent groups I start on Tuesday. Ugh. What have I gotten myself into?

Happy week... see you all 'lighter'!!!

Babysitting day is here!

FINALLY! I FINALLY get the chance to babysit my adorable nephew!!

We're leaving for Hamilton around 1pm and going to have a visit with Michele and Jacob and Michele is going to have my bathe Simon and show me how she prepares his bottles and whatnot... Then they'll leave for their day out... leaving Alex and I to watch Heffner, Chicklet... AND SIMON! I can't wait to give him his bumbo seat and take photos of him ALL DAY!

Last night I was on my own for dinner so I did a mexican chicken dish... threw some chicken and tomatoes (I HAVE to use up my basket of tomatoes I bought last week!) and black beans and corn and brown rice into the pan and let it cook until the rice soaked up all the water... threw in some texmex seasoning and garlic... it was pretty good. I figured out the whole thing was 8 points between the chicken, rice, EVOO and a point for the beans and corn together... but I only ate half of the dish, so my whole dinner was only 4pts! I'll have the other half today for lunch... or I may only eat half of it and put it in a ww wrap and have a burrito.

Breakfast today was: ww bagel (2), egg (2), tomato (0) and 1tbsp cheez whiz light (1)

I already went on the treadmill today and I did increase my speed.

I was thinking... Isn't there a CNIB run for sight or something? It would be nice to do a run with my dad in that... for my grandma sibley... she was legally blind and the CNIB provided so much for her... and grandma always called us her "precious lambs"... so, there's our team name... I could get the family to join in... anyone who knew my grandma and loved her... anyway, I'm such a day dreamer... I was thinking about that on the treadmill and found myself running harder for my grandma! something to look into...

The results are in.

I was down 1.4lbs!

It's not the 2.5 I was hoping for every week... but that doesn't mean I won't hit that next week... and it doesn't mean my loss is not something I should be happy with.

Note to self: next week don't eat triscuits the night before weigh in!!

Tara - I was thinking... since you weighed in a day early, now you have EIGHT days until the next weigh in... so you have an extra day to accomplish whatever you want!!

I shall reflect my ticker to update my results.

I had a turkey breast sub for dinner and oreo 100cal pack and a sf pudding... and I may have popcorn tonight... but I'm not hungry at the moment, so who knows!

I updated my weight on fitday.com and it says I have to lose 2.3lbs per week to reach my goal by Christmas... I'm going to have to work pretty hard!! BUT... I know it will be worth it. This week I'm going to increase my treadmill speed... now that my shins are feeling fine. There we go - I have just set this week's goal.

I hope everyone has a great Friday!

Remember - if you're going to indulge - you may bulge.

Remember - no pain? BIG gain!

Remember - if you snack it, you must TRAK it!

Okay, I'm a geek with my rhymes... Here's a picture of a cupcake from my Easter cupcakes last year... just because I think they're pretty.

Today's the day...

I KNOW I was down in weight as of last night, but this morning I'm up... I KNOW I should have been down at least 0.4lbs for weigh in... so if I AM up... I will blame it on my stupidity of eating triscuits last night... and then will just look forward and move on to next week.

Good luck TARA!! Get WI over with and go enjoy your evening with your sister, her hot tub (I didn't know they had a hot tub! NICE!!), and your NEPHEW!

I will be back this evening to post results... whether they be good, bad, or ugly!

Ah CRAP!

Did I make a fatal mistake?

I was watching TV and decided to have 10 low fat triscuits and 2 tbsp cream cheese... I have now realized that maybe triscuits have too much sodium in them and maybe I'll retain water and that will effect my weigh in!

CRAP CRAP CRAP!!

Another hump day

Well, I made it through the day at work. I even managed to take a lunch today AND come straight home after work - what a treat! I think after I start my groups next week I will really come to enjoy my Wednesday evenings to myself and/or with Alex.

I came home today and had to work from home for the group... had to call all the parents and touch base with them about what their concerns are and stuff... it's all real now! BUT, on the positive side... getting to speak to them already and hearing their friendly voices was definitely helpful at putting my mind at ease. Although, I can already tell the one parent is going to be the lady who has "tried everything" and is going to challenge what I say.

Tomorrow is the big day... we'll see how I did this week and if I'll lose more weight!

I didn't eat anything out of the ordinary today... and my head is still jumbled with the group stuff to even recall what I ate! I remember lunch was a tuna/veg salad in a ww wrap... dinner was grilled veg's with feta and some turkey breast... breakfast was cereal and almonds... throw in a yogurt and pudding and tapioca and pear and you've got my day i think!

Okay, time to go try the couple of last parents whose phone line was busy a minute ago. Who doesn't have call waiting anymore???

I need a laptop...

... then I could type this WHILE watching The Biggest Loser, rather than type it during commercials!

Work was extremely busy today... but that's to be expected. Children's Mental Health picks up everywhere during back to school time.

I went after work for a massage... turns out my back is quite a mess. The pain/discomfor I was feeling the last few weeks is apparently not normal... but it's okay, I have stretches she wants me to do as well as letting HOT water hit my back for 3min each day in the shower... whatever... I'm not in serious pain so I'm not really worried about it!

Vitamins! I take a multi-vitamin... the women's one-a-day weight loss formula. I also take a B complex and vitamin C, as well as some zinc. TARA - you likely need a B complex with lot's of B12... on top of a multi vitamin... and maybe some iron? Definitely talk to your doctor about it!!

Today's menu?

Breakfast: 1c raisin bran (2), 1/2c skim milk (1), 2pc ww toast (1), 2 tsp PB (1)

Lunch: Tuscan Crab Salad with lettuce, green pepper, red pepper, green onion (0), 1/4c white kidney beans (0), 2/3c crab meat (2), 1/4c light feta (2). 3tbsp ff italian (0), 10 low fat triscuits (2), source yogurt (1)

Snack: nectarine (1)

Snack at home before massage: 2 fig newtons (1), 1 pc rye bread (1), 1 tbsp PB (2)

Dinner:baked potato (3), 1.5tbsp ff sour cream (0), grilled eggplant, zucchini, and red peppers (0), mushrooms and zucchini in 1tsp EVOO (1), 2 tbsp light feta (1)

Snack: sf chocolate pudding

There we have it! I got on the treadmill again today.. So that makes it 4 days in a row... after tomorrow I'll have reached my treadmill goal for the week!

AND just because pictures are fun... Here's my dinner!



GO BLUE TEAM!

Post #2!

I'm back!

Tara - when I typed out what I ate it felt like I must be missing something, because it didn't LOOK like I ate a lot... and sure enough, I did eat a cheese string in between breakfast and lunch... but that's all, so I guess I didn't eat as much as I thought!

Since I love looking at Tara's meals so much in photos... and since I'm vowing to make my lunch the night BEFORE now, in hopes of making sure I have enough time on the treadmill and am NOT late for work...

Here is tomorrow's lunch!

It's a tuscan crab salad with FF italian dressing and 10 low fat triscuits. I'll also have a yogurt and a nectarine with it throughout the day. The salad has lettuce, crab meat, feta, red pepper, green pepper and green onion... oh, and white kidney beans. I'll tally the points tomorrow in my post!

Does anyone ever feel nauseated after taking your vitamins? I used to vomit after taking them in the mornings when I worked days at sickkids... so the one doctor there recommended I take them in the evening and not on an empty stomach... the last 2 nights I've taken my vitamins they've made me feel quite ill! I think I've taken them around when i've eaten something... I think for me, the key is to take them on an empty stomach! It's been about 2 years since they made me sick... and they're the same ones... so I think it's a fluke. But I don't know if I'm odd or if other people get this! (yes, I realize I'm always odd no matter what... because I KNOW if Alex is reading this, that's what he's thinking... thank GOD I'm not as odd as HIM! haha!).

Sometimes I hate Mondays.

I shouldn't complain... having Monday mornings off and all... but sometimes it's so hard to drag myself to work at noon when all I want to do is have the REST of the day at home! And by the time I get home (by 8:30 IF i come STRAIGHT home) I'm just exhausted... but that's better than not being tired and not getting a good night's sleep.

Today I got on the treadmill earlier than a typical Monday, just so I wouldn't have to feel rushed. I'm only doing 30min still... ends up being just over 4K that I do... but I think I'll stick to that for this week and make sure I'm okay off the drugs... and that my shins survive!

I ate a lot today... but I'm not losing sleep over it.

Breakfast:
*3/4c shredded wheat n' bran (1)
*1/c skim milk (1)
*10 almonds (2)

Lunch:
2 grilled sandwiches: 4 pc ww bread (2), turkey breast (1), tomato slices (0), cheese slices (2). I cooked them on the foreman grill instead of the frying pan... they were good!
*sf pudding (1)

Snack:
*pear (1)

Dinner:
Tuna Salad with - tuna (2), 30g light cheese (2), 1tbsp ff ranch (1), 1 tbsp ff miracle whip (0), tomato, red onion, green onion, red pepper, green pepper and cucumber (0)
*yogurt (1)
*100 cal oreos (2)

Snack:
*100 cal doritos (2)

I was going to have a snack when I came home... except I'm NOT HUNGRY! So, I will just lie on the couch and watch THE HILLS and wait for 10:30 when I'll head to bed!

Tomorrow I'm going for a massage after work (we get covered for $500 a year through our insurance and I haven't used ANY of it yet... and I fully intend to by the end of the year!). yay!

Christmas is coming... 100 days away!

Okay, so Christmas is in 100 days. I have set a goal for myself for Christmas day. I want to lose 33lbs by Christmas... which means losing 2.3lbs per week. I can't give up on this goal... I have to keep working hard. That also means, by my shopping trip with Tara I want to have lost 18lbs... I know it will be hard, but I know it IS humanly possible. I just have to keep being strict... and remember that I WILL find it worth it... I can't even imagine being at my goal weight and being thin and knowing PLUS size clothes are TOO BIG for me...

When I'm at my goal weight I will weigh less than what I did in highschool... it will be amazing, I just know it.

Anyway, I bought sugar free maple syrup (or maple FLAVOURED) syrup this week... then I remembered I have sugar free syrups in my cupboard... now, I bought them a YEAR ago, so I'm not sure how long they're good for... but I imagine they've not gone BAD by any means!

They're called DaVinci sugar free syrups - there's a link
http://www.davincigourmet.com/products/sugar_free_flavored_syrups/

I have the cherry flavoured (to make my diet coke a cherry diet coke), caramel, and chocolate. They're not THICK like maple syrup... but they are pretty good.

I bought them at the low carb grocery store ( http://www.thelowcarbgrocery.com )

So, I haven't posted my meals in a while. Last night I did dip into my flex points.

Yesterdays' meals:

Breakfast: 2 slices rye bread (2), 2 tbsp lite cheez whiz (1), 2 slices tomato (0)

Snack: pear (1) with 2 tbsp ff sour cream (0) and 1 tsp splenda br sugar (0)

Lunch: 2 ww wraps (2), turkey breast (1), 2 tbsp lite garden cream cheese (1), tomato (0), apple (1), source yogurt (1)

Snack at work: 1 mini mr.big bar (1)

Dinner at work: smart ones sante fe rice and beans (6), 100 cal chips ahoy (2)

Snack at 10pm - while others were eating curly fries and greasey food from the cafeteria: 100 cal cheetos (2)

Got home and was still hungry and had: cream cheese and crackers (5), and friggin sugar free shortbread cookies (6).

yep, I ate a LOT yesterday (i just typed "hate" instead of "ate" by accident - think that was a freudian slip?). i DID also get on the treadmill for a half an hour before I went to work yesterday.

Today, I got up and went to meet with the lady who hired me to run the groups. NOW I'm going to get on the treadmill before Alex and I go out for the day!

Today's meal:
Breakfast: 1 ww pita (2), egg beaters (1), cheez whiz (1), tomato slices (0)

Snack before meeting Susan to ensure I didn't order anything at the coffee shop: sf tapioca (1), sf jello pudding (1)

Not sure what the rest of the day holds... I will find out!! Now, time to JOG!!!

Is this enough food for 1 person?

This is after grocery shopping... which I won't do for 2 more weeks now.

Well, it's the weekend...

... and I'm working. BUT at least I'm on 7A (my old ward at SickKids). I'm working an evening shift, which on our unit is 3:30-11:30. Then, tomorrow I have to meet up with the lady who hired me to run the groups for parents... she says if I like the first group session she can have me run the same one twice more... and keep me busy until March... I told her I'll see how the first one goes and I'll think about it. I'm a bit worried I'm biting off more than I can chew... working weekend at SickKids, Tuesday evenings downtown for the group... PLUS my full time mon-fri job... I guess time will tell!

Michele and Jacob and Simon are unexpectedly home this weekend in Pontypool... their car broke down on the way to Sudbury... so, the car is in Lindsay and Michele and Jacob and Simon are home until further notice... which SUCKS! I would LOVE to be able to go home for the evening now... but, making money will be worth it in the end.

I've already done my grocery shopping today... I only spent $80 this time (as opposed to $140 the last 2 times)... so, $80 for 2 weeks isn't too bad! Even better now, I'm done for 2 weeks (although I forgot fig newtons, but I think I can survive without them). I should take a photo of my fridge and freezer now... it's crazy! One person can't possibly need THAT much food!

We went to Montana's for dinner last night... it was crazy raining and we (read - I) decided we should have comfort food... I had a chicken breast sandwhich with cheese and BBQ sauce on it... I figured it was likely 10pts, and I had a baked potato on the side, which I only put a tsp of sour cream on maybe... AND I had a bite of Alex's cornbread.

Last night we came home and didn't even look for dessert... I think we were both so tired we just went straight to bed basically!!!

Today I haven't even eaten yet... and don't even know what I have planned to eat... My mind is scattered today!

I'll update once I have a menu planned!!

Happy weekend!

Negative!

My weight change was a negative one this week... I was DOWN 2.6LBS!!!

I have no problem with that. I don't remember the last time I was down the week before and the week of my period (TMI? I don't care right now!! haha!!).

I treated myself to a subway sub and a smart ones brownie tonight... AND I had 100cal pack doritos during BB (which, I won't give away any information just in case someone working nights is watching this and doesn't know what happened on the show yet!).

I'm enjoying this whole losing weight thing again... I might have to add a weight loss ticker just like Tara's!!!

Happy Thursday night... and top of the Friday morning to everyone. Time for a new WW week for me... and time to keep working hard!

T-day!

It's Today, Thursday, Truth-day... T-day!

I'm never DOWN this week of the month, hoping to maintain.. I do have scales at home but they're proving to not be accurate with the WW scales anymore (And it's a WW scale!)... maybe I need to put new batteries in it... who knows.

I'll update later with the results... time to go pack a snack for during the meeting... then come home for a night of BB8!

Happy trails!

Last chance workout!

Well, it's Wednesday. It was a crappy day at work and I'm so glad it's over... I won't even get into the details out of internet paranoia... but I'm ready to move on to a new day at work!

I slept in today and got on the treadmill late... and only had time for 25min... BUT, the point is I still made myself get on despite knowing I was running late and wouldn't be able to devote the full 35min... (working my way back up to 45min, where I left off in the spring). The good news - nothing even remotely close to pain in my shins. Yes sir, I think I'm on the road to recovery. I have decided I will eat dinner and then go for an "uphill hike" on the treadmill for (hopefully) an hour. It will be MY version of the last chance workout before my weigh-in.

As for activity points (Tara!)... I don't count them (or eat them, rather). I will once I get to my goal weight... but to lose more weight right now I don't (or try not to) consume any activity points... UNLESS it's a night out and I want to be able to eat more... then I will allow myself the activity points! (meaning subway, drinks, and edge veggie pizza nights!!)

Sadly, I don't have much else to report today... So here's what I've consumed:

Breakfast: 1/2c ff cottage cheese (2), 1/4c mandarin oranges (1), 2 tbsp all bran buds (0)

Lunch: 1/2c chick peas (2), green pepper, red onion, red pepper, cucumber (0), 30g light cheddar (2), 2 tbsp ff ranch (1). vanilla source yogurt (1).

It got so busy at work I couldn't even eat my afternoon snack, which was an apple.

Dinner? Not sure! I think a garden tuna melt - tuna (2), ff miracle whip, 2 tbsp (1), onion, peppers (0), on 2 slices rye bread (2), 30g light cheddar (2)

Maybe for a snack tonight I'll eat that apple. I'm not sure... I don't even feel hungry right now!

Just because I feel blah (which will pass within a couple of hours... just need to relax!)... here's some photos of Simon that I stole from Michele's facebook!

*UPDATE* - okay, so I fell asleep on the couch after dinner and woke up 20min ago (9pm). No treadmill for me tonight, so I will have to go on in the morning. I'm just not meant to exercise at night... I'm too tired!

Bob Harper; heed my cry. I aspire to be a LOSER!

well, that's it... I just watched the premiere episode of the BIGGEST LOSER... I'm going to love this season, I can tell. And what's better? It goes until December... and I have a goal set for myself by Christmas! It will require hard work... but I won't give up!

I think If I were on the biggest loser I'd want Bob to train me... I just LOVE that man. He's so sweet and empathetic while being firm and encouraging and supportive (without crying - I love you Kim, but you couldn't cry as my trainer because I'd just cry right along with you). I think I'd love to spend a day with Jillian, but I don't know that I could handle more than that... she might make ME cry!!!

I loved how Bob told the blue team when they're craving the junk food just to chew on some gum (that is my coping strategy I developed last week! He and I are soooo in sync!!! haha!).

So, now I have to go watch BB (thank GOD... yes, AMBER... i said GOD) for time shifting! I can watch BB then go to BED!!!

I hit snooze twice this morning and didn't get up until 5:50am... but I still got on the treadmill! I have to say, the diet Red Rave was a great energy drink!!! I was on the treadmill and FINALLY feeling GOOD while on it... which even allowed me to realize how terrible my cardio strength is... so now that my shins are (hopefully) conditioned, I can build up my cardio!!

I ate too much today and went over my points and my goal caloric intake... but these things happen.

Breakfast: 1/2c ff cottage cheese (2), 1/4c mandarin oranges (1), 2 tbsp all bran buds (0)... WW english muffin (1), 2 tsp SF jam (0)

Lunch: 1/2c chick peas (2), cucumber (0), 30g light cheddar cheese (2), 2 tbsp FF ranch (1), in a ww pita (2), and a kozy shack tapioca (1)

Snack: apple (1)

Snack at home: cheese string (1), fig newton (0)

Dinner: ww pita (2), blue menu BBQ sauce, 2 tbsp (1), sliced turkey breast (1), cheese slice (1), WW bagel (2) with strawberry jam (0) and PB (2) - the bagel was my dessert. Yes, I carb over-loaded today!

Snack during biggest loser: 100cal popcorn (1), 100 cal cheetos (2)

This is when I stopped myself and reached for the gum!!!

Well, I think my melatonin is taking effect and I need to go watch BB!

Everyone have yourselves a merry little hump day tomorrow!!!

It was a big day in my world...

... my little Princess Raven started Junior Kindergarten. I don't know how Stacey made it through the day... I thought about Raven all day long! I called Stac tonight and she said Raven had a GREAT day and absolutely LOVED school... Stacey survived the morning by going for a mani/pedi. When Raven came home Stac told her how I'm going to go visit them and have a sleepover on Thanksgiving weekend (Stacey holds Thanksgiving dinner every year, so I'm going up ahead of time to help her get ready... and help her drink wine and help her use her new hot tub!). Raven was sooooo excited when Stacey told her this, she declared I'm sleeping in her room because I'm her BEST FRIEND! Now, talk about making my Monday!!!! I adore that little girl!!!

Raven and myself on Christmas Eve '06:

The rest of my day was great... Tara made a blog! YAY!!! I can't wait to work together even that much more in this journey!!!

I talked to my Clinical Leader at SickKids and she may be working on trying to get me more 7A shifts (my old unit... rather than have to work hospital wide)... yay!!

I managed to get myself on the treadmill today - AND no pain!!! Slow and steady proves to be winning this race... I can't be over-anxious to pick up where I left off in the spring!

As for what I've eaten... I've done well!

Breakfast:
*1c raisin bran (2)
*1/2c skim milk (1)
*1pc WW bread (1)
*2 tsp PB light (1)

Lunch:
*2 pc rye bread (2)
*1tsp salsa (0)
*turkey breast (1)
*2 ff cheese slices (1)
*SF jello pudding (1)

Snack:
*source yogurt, cherry (1)

Dinner: TUSCAN TUNA SALAD
*romaine lettuce, green pepper, green onion, shredded carrot (0)
*tuna (2)
*1/4c white kidney beans (1)
*3 Tbsp FF Italian drsg (0)
*1c grapes on the side (1)

So, I have points left for today. I went to Costco after work and bought a case of SF red rave energy drink (hopefully it's as good as red bull, it's definitely cheaper! $20 for a case, as opposed to $70 for a case of red bull!)... and I bought some kozy shack tapioca pudding (and toilet paper - in case inquiring minds REALLY want to know). I think I'll have a kozy shack pudding... and not sure what else, I don't even feel hungry!

WELCOME TARA!!!

My weekend: the uphill battle

Although I KNOW i haven't done sooooo bad this weekend, I still feel like I've given in to cravings more than I should have. Now, if I want to look on the bright side... I'm definitely doing better than the past year with handling my cravings.

Last night was perhaps my most difficult task back on my 'road to [weight] reduction'... I was working an evening shift at SickKids... and to celebrate one of my coworkers annoucing she was pregnant... there was a TON of food on the table in the nursing station. I can resist okay... but come 9/10pm when you're starting to feel hungry again (following my SmartOnes lasagna dinner)... all I wanted to do was reach for the tostitos and ruffles onion dip... I kept walking back around the food... trying to resisit... and popping more and more gum in my mouth! Finally, I caved... but I did it with control. I ate 3 tostitos (not baked ones either!) and some dip on all of them... my guess is I had maybe 1 tbsp of dip (which is 30 calories according to the container)... then I didn't allow myself to have anymore. but man, it was the hardest challenge yet!

When I came home at midnight I felt hungry but couldn't decide if I was actually hungry or if it was force of habit (I used to come home from an evening shift and take a drive through the Wendy's drive thru... combo 6... spicy chicken burger with a cheesy baked potato... now, that was back before I even joined WW).... but when I got home and realized my stomach was growing... I had to eat. so, I had 15 triscuits with 2 tbsp light cream cheese (onion one, so 2pts). So, I did end up using flex points yesterday and going over my ideal calorie intake.. but what can you do? these things happen.

Today I woke up at 7am and couldn't get back to sleep... so I decided to get up and start cleaning, since I was feeling like it (when you feel like cleaning - you do it! who knows when you'll actually feel like it again!). by 2pm I had lunch and felt tired... which lead me to spending the rest of the afternoon on the couch and napping on and off... so of course now I feel yucky (I hate napping) and haven't been on the treadmill... but I will go on tomorrow! I have no choice now but to go on Mon-Thurs every day!

I've eaten a lot today...

Breakfast:
*3/4c shredded wheat n' bran (1), splenda and cinamon (0)
*1/2c skim milk (1)
*10 almonds (2)

Lunch:
*red pepper, red onion, mushrooms (0)
*egg beaters (1)
*small baked potato (2), with ff sour cream, 3 tbsp (1)
*kozy shack apple pie pudding (1)
*kozy shack cherries jubilee pudding (1)

Snack:
*granola bar (2)
*cheese string (1)

Another snack:
*1/2c shredded wheat (1)
*1/2c skim milk (1)

Dinner:
*ww bagel (2), with tomato slices (0) and 2 ff swiss cheese slices (1)
*broccoli and tomato (0) with 3 tbsp ff italian (0)
*5 triscuits (1), with 1 tbsp ff cream cheese (1)
*100 cal oreos (2)

Man, I've eaten a lot today!!!

The one good thing about the weekdays... routine and structure with my eating!!!

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

"Every day is a winding road"

I'm realizing every single day has the potential to be very challenging... and it's up to me not to allow these days to be disastrous.

Yesterday was a LONG day at work and I was CRABBY when I left there. The worst thing about PMS for me, however, is having to drive with other cars on the road. I have little tolerance for inconsiderate and moronic drivers on the best of days... but when I'm PMS'ing... I honk my horn at anyone who just looks at me the wrong way... so by the time I get home poor Alex is forced to deal with my mood... and sometimes there is just nothing he can do to turn it around for me... it's just a matter of decompressing from my drive and letting it all go... and eventually I was able to do that last night... but not before I had a moment where I seriously wondered if he would leave me after seeing the moods I am capable of having!!! haha!!

I seriously could have sabotaged myself yesterday. I was stuck in a meeting room all afternoon at work and there were a huge platter of sweets... all chocolate (have I mentioned my sweet tooth? my affinity for chocolate? my lack of will power?)... and I resisted. I think had I been in the room alone, I would have caved... but my new motto is "jog like nobody's watching, eat like somebody is"... so, luckily... I found my will power.

I came home feeling like I was STARVING... so then I'm forced to deal with the demons of NOT snacking before Alex gets here. I caved and I had a snack (when my stomach's growling... I know it's not psychological, I KNOW I'm hungry)... I had a cheese string and 1/2 fig newton cookie (gave chicklet the other half, she loves those things).

Then Alex and I (being we are trying to eat healthier together now... no more burgers and wings and fries for him every week) went to subway to get a sub for dinner. I had my typical turkey breast sub - Tara style!

I was worried about having SOMETHING for dessert... just figuring I would need something sweet. I even wanted to go to the grocery store and buy frozen yogurt. Alex didn't want to do that... so we came home... ate our subs... watched restaurant makeover... and forgot all about dessert and anything sweet! I managed to not eat anything the rest of the night!!!!

Today I went to Shoppers to get 20x the points (stocked up on method products, air wick oils, and the spectro jel face stuff... which I'll use in combination with proactiv for now... make the proactiv last longer too!)... I came home and WENT ON THE TREADMILL! I had NO pain, but I'm definitely feeling tightening of the muscles in my calves and shins... I'm learning I need to just go slower and condition myself back into this activity... when I go slower, I don't feel pain... that has to tell me something.

I'm working on 7A (sickkids) for the evening... 3:30-11:30... haven't decided if I'll make dinner or take one of my smart ones frozen dinners!

Anyway, here's my food for the day:

Breakfast:
*3/4c shredded wheat n' bran (1) - with my splenda/cinnamon mixture on top and flax seed
*10 almonds (2)
*1/2c skim milk (1)

Lunch:
*1c ww pasta (3)
*1/2c skim milk (1)
*1 tbsp cheese powder (0)
*1 tbsp ff sour cream (0)
*portabello veggie patty (2)

Snack:
*cheetos 100 cal (or sunchips) - (2)

Dinner - TBD!!! I may try the lasagna florentine smart ones (6)
*100 cal oreos pack (2)

Happy Saturday!!

Trying to remain positive...

on a day that was less than stellar at work, i shall remain positive and find the good things about my day (after all, this is not a 'work' blog - it's a weight blog!).

Positive things about my day

1. I found 2 new smart ones varieties at Sobey's!! chicken parmesan (6pts) and a vegetarian lasagna (6pts). We're getting that much closer to all the WW food in Canada. I don't know why they don't wise-up and get those bagels over here yet! And maybe all the crystal light flavours while they're at it!
2. I am resisting my INCREDIBLE sweets cravings. I am PMS'ing and since not being so meticulus about counting points and what I'm eating... I've been giving in to my sweets cravings. Today, I am NOT giving in! I did eat a 100 calorie pack chips ahoy- but that's okay!
3. I was down at weigh-in! It was only 1lb... but (looking on the bright side), historically this has always been a week to be UP in weight (bloated week I call it)... so the fact that I'm down... I'll take it. Even if only a pound (maybe next week or the week after it will be more... as long as I just keep working as honestly hard as i have been!).
4. BIG BROTHER is on tonight... and it's going to be a GOOD one!! Only 30min to go!!
5. My Mastercard is officially PAID off! I've been working at it since January... and last night, I officially paid off every last cent! (now on to my line of credit, which is about the same amount I just paid on my m/c).

I couldn't sleep last night (I think I was excited because of paying off my m/c). I only got about 3hrs of sleep, but still got on the treadmill this morning... but only for a short time because I started feeling sick (probably lack of sleep... i get sick if i don't get enough sleep!).

I'm tired... time to go rest on the couch and make sure I get up and get back on the treadmill tomorrow... my new WW week starts tomorrow!

Tara - good luck for your WI tomorrow! Let me know how it goes!!! I bet that full OP fridge is helping!!

PS!

A girl at work went to NYC on the weekend and brought me back 2 bags of bagels (I had asked her to buy as many as she could so I could distribute some to mom, Tara and Stacey... but she only came back with 2 bags and a loaf of WW bread)... but she also grabbed me a box of wild strawberry crystal light... ummm YUMMMM! I am loving it!!!

One more thing to add to my list for shopping in the states November 10!!!

Another day, another dollar....

...Another day on the treadmill!!! That's 2 EARLY mornings in a row... and 4 days in a row for the treadmill. Today, I was feeling it... not my shins... just exhausted.

Thursday is usually my day off from the treadmill but because I've only been on 4 days this week I was thinking I may go on tomorrow... but THEN I decided I'll walk an hour uphill tonight instead and enjoy my Thursday morning off and get back on Friday morning.

There's not even anything new to report here!

Today's menu?

Breakfast:

• 3/4c shredded wheat n' bran (1)
• 1/2c skim milk (1)
• SF red bull

Lunch:

• 3oz chicken breast (3)
• lettuce, tomato, red pepper (0)
• 2 tbsp FF ranch (1)
• 1 tsp grated parmesan, low fat (1)
• 1c grapes
• 2 slices weight watcher bread (1)

Dinner - planned (I really have NO idea... so here's what I'm just thinking)

• veggie burger (2)
• broccoli and tomato with FF italian (1) and feta (1)
• yogurt (1)

I realize I'm not eating enough points today... so I'll figure something out!

Happy Hump Day!

Tuesday disguised as Monday

It's me! And guess where I am! I'll give you a hint... I'm NOT at home! AND I am smarter than big brother!!

So, I couldn't sleep last night... tossed and turned all night. I'm not sure what is wrong. I moved my bed to another wall so Chicklet could jump up on the bed a bit easier... and ever since moving the bed I've had a harder time sleeping... I think it will just take me a bit to get used to the new bed position... who knows. I was a little afraid I'd wake up today and NOT go on the treadmill because I didn't sleep well... but GUESS WHAT! I DID go on the treadmill!! I only jogged 30min (with a 10min warm up/cool down)... but it's a start, right? I still take advil prior to going on and put Rub A535 on my shins first and it seems to be working. I've also realized I have to just focus on the amount of minutes I've got my heart rate up for now... and now how far I jog in that half hour. I need to stop pushing myself too much, to the point where I injure myself. In any case... I am happy to report I've now jogged 3 days in a row!

As for what I've eaten? I've been good I'd say, since Friday... aside from the extra snacks Saturday night (which isn't so bad)... I've done well. Time will tell how much it pays off. This is my PMS week (sorry, TMI)... so I will be forgiving (to myself AND the scale) if I'm not happy with the results on Thursday.

Breakfast:

• 1 1/4c raisin bran (3)
  
• 3/4c skim milk (1? or 2? not sure off the top of my head)
  
• 12 almonds (2)
  

Lunch:

• 2 WW wraps (2)
  
• FF turkey breast (1)
  
• 30g light cheddar (2)
  
• lettuce, mushrooms, red onion (0)
  
• 1 tbsp FF miracle whip (0)
  
• 1 tsp mustard (0)
  
• 1c green grapes (1)
  
• 1 source yogurt, cherry (1)
  

Snack:

• Kozy Shack apple pie dessert (1)
  

Dinner: What's planned is a portabello garlic veggie burger from Costco (2)with a mushroom and onion topping (0) cooked in EVOO (1) with some swiss cheese - FF swiss cheese slice (1). Alex will have his burger on a bun, but I think I'll skip the bun today. We're having sweet potato fries on the side (unsure of points value). Then I'm going to make FF jello pudding with FF cool whip for dessert!

Here's hoping knowing tomorrow I get on the treadmill again tomorrow morning!!

Damn cookies. They got me.

Well, I typed a huge entry earlier today and somehow I hit something wrong and friggin lost it. I was NOT happy... so I took the rest of the day away from the computer.

Basically, I had confessed to eating COOKIES yesterday. I had decided to bake cookies for my dad (my parents and Kristen were stopping in after the CNE)... well, I caved and ate about 4 of them. Who knows how many points it was, but a I allowed 10. Given I hadn't eaten much breakfast and hadn't been hungry for lunch... plus I felt guilty after I ate them... I ended up not eating anything the rest of the day (because I wasn't hungry, I wasn't intentionally starving myself!)... and still had points left over. It was a moment of weakness... I did it, I accept it, and today... I move on.

BUT the good news about yesterday is I GOT ON THE TREADMILL and stayed on! I think I've found a band aid for my shin splints problem. Within 10min on the treadmill my shins were KILLING... so I took a break and tried Advil and rubbing a pain reliever on my shins ("024" from shoppers). What do you know? It worked!! I managed to get on the treadmill another 30min without having to stop after that!!

So, today I took Advil and put the pain reliever on my shins before even GOING on the treadmill... and I jogged for 50 minutes (well, 40min jogging and 10min warm up/cool down of walking)! YAY!! The pain reliever stuff I've used was just samples... so I ventured to Shoppers this afternoon to invest in some (hooray for Shoppers being open today!)... well, a tube of it is freaking $25!!! So, I decided 'what the hell?' and bought Rub A535 instead... hopefully that works just as well in combination with the Advil!!! I'm so happy though!!

Today my eating has been great... I'm right on plan. Here's what I've ingested:

Breakfast:
*omelet made of 1/4c egg beaters (1), broccoli and red onion (0), 1 tsp EVOO (1), all in a whole wheat pita (2), with a cheese slice (1)

Snack:
*apple (1)

Lunch:
*tuna (2) with tomato and cucumber and red onion (0), 2 tbsp FF ranch drsg (1)
*1/2 ww pita (1)
*banana (2)

Snack:
*FF turkey breast deli meat (1)
*1 tbsp cream cheese light - garden flavour (1)

Dinner (a really good recipe I tried for the first time thanks to kraftfoods.com):
*cook 1 chicken breast (3) in 1 tsp EVOO (1), throw in some sliced red pepper and broccoli (0), add 1c low sodium chicken broth (0) and bring to a boil. Add 1/2c brown rice (2) and cook until the rice is done (absorbs all the broth). It was really good!!! I think you could substitute the chicken with tofu and it would be good as well!
*strawberries and grapes (1) with a YUMMY dessert topping of 2 tbsp FF sour cream (1) mixed with 1 tsp brown sugar splenda (0). You mix the sour cream and sugar and then put it on top of the fruit... very very delicious!!

I hope everyone enjoyed their long weekend... and summer. I'm sad to see it be over.. but now to look forward to the fall.... thanksgiving, Alex turning 30, Halloween, my birthday, shopping in the states with Tara, mine and Alex's 4yr anniversary, and of course... CHRISTMAS! (then I can start dreading new years!).

It's me vs the food... and I'm WINNING!

Last night some things popped up and I didn't get on the treadmill... my own fault. I shouldn't have left it until that late in the evening. Today, I will make up for it.

Last night, I caved and had 2 pkgs of 100 calorie pack doritos. I figure, if that's my moment of weakness now and i'm counting it... I'm still better off than a week ago. At least I'm back to accounting for every BLT again (Bite, Lick and Taste).

Last night I had a dream that I was hanging out with Britney Spears (yes, maybe it was actually a NIGHTMARE!)... and she offered me some of her junk food.... I ate 2 cheetos and then suddenly REMEMBERED that I'm now counting EVERYTHING... so I put the food down and got the hell out of Britney Spears' palace... and Alex was with me and was very happy with me. So yes, food is consuming me right now (I think it's fair to say... since it's haunting me in my dreams).... maybe it was a little guilt left from eating 4 pts worth of snacks last night... who knows!

I did find one coping mechanism last night... i went through an ENTIRE pack of mentos sugar free gum while trying to resist eating any more snack foods... I just kept popping pieces in my mouth and spitting them out once they lost most of their flavour... then I'd pop in another piece! Thank Amber's God for costco... because I have a whole carton of gum I can go through to get me through these snacking cravings!

Today I did grocery shopping (so my fridge does NOT look as organized as it did in those photos now!)... I was in line at walmart waiting to pay and there was a lady in front of me had just put all her stuff on the belt thing... while she was waiting she took a chocolate bar off the shelf and read the nutritional info (it was a regular chocolate bar, not a low-cal one)... then she put it back. Within a couple of minutes she did the same thing. A couple of minutes after that she picked up the chocolate bar and put it with her things to buy it... and a moment after that she picked up a few more and threw them in there as well. I felt bad for her... I know what she was going through... But it did only make me feel that much better about my own control when it was my turn to wait in front of the chocolate bars.

I did my shopping and came home and had a WW bagel with light cream cheese. I have rediscovered cream cheese after seeing Tara eat it on her bagel at her place (I had cheez whiz! which i love!)... so today I bought 1 thing of light garden vegetable cream cheese and 1 thing of the light herb one. HELLO! you can have 2 tbsp for only 1pt!!! I had no idea!!! So, I had 1 tbsp of each flavour on each half of the bagel!

Today's lunch is a chicken parmesan salad... I forget exactly what's in it... lettuce (0) and red pepper (0) and carrots (0), FF ranch (1), chicken breast 3oz (3), and parmesan cheese I believe. I'm going to have it with a WW english muffin on the side (1).

Today's dinner sounds pretty good... I'm posting it directly from the kraftfoods.com website for you to see:


Grilled Cheese & Tomato Sandwich with a Salad

2 slices whole wheat bread
2 tsp. trans fat free canola-based soft margarine
6 broccoli spears, chopped
2 slices KRAFT 2% Milk Singles
1/4 medium tomato, sliced
10 large fresh mushrooms, sliced
1/2 carrot, grated
1 Tbsp. chopped green onion
1 Tbsp. KRAFT FREE Ranch Fat Free Dressing
1 tsp. PLANTERS Sunflower Kernels
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1 kiwi
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1 16 fl oz bottle CRYSTAL LIGHT, favorite flavor

SPREAD each slice of bread with 1 tsp. margarine; place one buttered-side down in a small nonstick skillet. Top with a slice of cheese, a thick slice of tomato, another slice of cheese and another slice of bread buttered-side up. Cook each side on medium until cheese is melted and bread is golden brown.

TO build salad, toss together broccoli, carrot, mushrooms, onions and dressing; cover and refrigerate until ready to serve. Sprinkle with sunflower kernels just before serving.

ENJOY a fresh kiwi for dessert.


Now, let me discuss one of my pet peeves... FAT FREE SALAD DRESSING AND WEIGHT WATCHERS. It's a freaking' CORE FOOD that you're supposed to be able to eat as much of when you're on CORE... but when you're doing the flex plan you have to count it! I don't understand!!! So, TARA, I totally understand where you're coming from with the FF dressing. I too like a LOT of dressing on my salad... which is why I've found the hellman's sprays handy... it coats all of the stuff (like I like - I like every bite to have dressing on it)... but doesn't rack up the points.

I guess if I don't want to count FF dressing I have to commit to core and not have processed foods and carbs the same... but If i want those foods I have to do the flex, which means counting FF dressing... but still...

Tara - What are you going to do with the crackers? Enjoy the movie! You might like superbad... I definitely found a lot of funny parts... I had just heard how amazing it was so I had high expectations and was a little disappointed... but there were definitely some parts that had me laughing still the next day (but I enjoy those stupid boy movies usually).

So far, pretty good!

i shall start things off with a reminder of what I looked like at the beginning of my journey. I had already lost over 10lbs at this point. ugh.

I think I'm doing really well with this whole 'being honest with myself' thing. Now, the challenge will be to keep it up... ESPECIALLY since this is my PMS week... I guess it will only give me the chance to feel REALLY proud of myself, right??

Last night we went to Shoeless Joe's and I ordered a grilled chicken wrap with a side salad that had some carrots and tomato and onion and croutons on it (and I ate 2 croutons, took the rest off and put them on Alex's plate so i wouldn't be tempted by them)... with balsamic vinigrette on the side. they don't even have a grilled chicken wrap on the menu... but they have chicken wraps with breaded chicken, so I just asked for one with grilled chicken instead... and voila! they had it! after dinner we ventured up to woodbridge to watch the movie "superbad" (it was okay, had funny moments... a good rental I'd say... but definitely a boy movie)... so i got a grande sugar-free, fat-free caramel latte for the road at starbucks (they're 3 pts). I came home and alex went home... i felt a bit hungry so I did try one of my 1pt kozy shack puddings... they're just okay... for 1pts you really can't go wrong... but for the price of them, I won't buy them again probably. they're $4 for a pkg of 4. they did leave a little splenda after taste in my mouth. i much prefer their tapioca puddings.

Oh, and I did one bad thing... before I went to bed i found a bulk barn bag I had from a couple of weeks ago with about 10 (or less) gummi bears in it... i should have just thrown it out, but i couldn't (i can't throw food out that i've paid for for some reason!)... so i put them away in the cupboard... then woke up at about 3am and ate them. i technically still stayed within my points for the day... but i probably should have just thrown them out and not eaten them.... but anyway, i figured keeping with this whole honesty thing, i should confess (blog confessions of a foodie #1 for today).

Today is a challenge because it's a lazy saturday... i woke up with a headache... but it's a sinus headache so advil isn't doing much. i should get to shoppers and get something for sinus... but i haven't. i've just wanted to SNACK ALL DAY... but i've done pretty well in resisting (haven't totally resisted, because i am still human after all).

Here's today's food line up;

breakfast - 1/2 ww pita (1), 1/4c egg beaters (2), some frozen stir fry veggies (0), 1 tsp EVOO (1) **yay for me for counting the EVOO, because to be honest (today's foodie confession #2) - i haven't been counting oil when cooking with it for probably a year now. i really don't cook with it often, i typically use the becel spray.

lunch - tuna (2), 1/4c chick peas (1), cucumber and carrots (0), 1 tbsp FF miracle whip (0), 30g light cheddar (2), frank's hot sauce (0). no idea where i came up with that tuna salad... but it was pretty good (i love frank's on anything). banana (2), kozy shack pudding (1)

snacking in the afternoon - 100 cal pack of doritos (2), cheesestring (1) (what i REALLY WANTED is salty stuff... I could have eaten the whole damn box of the 100 cal doritos/sun chips/cheetos!!!!)

Dinner's plan? 1c ww pasta (3), and a homemade cheese sauce with some FF sour cream (but not sure how much so can't count the points) and mac and cheese powder from the bulk barn (2 tbsp for 1pt)... I saw once on "eat, shrink and be merry" that you can make kraft dinner with FF sour cream and cut out a lot of the calories... so I'm just attempting my own mac and cheese at home with the powder i bought at bulk barn! I may throw a chicken breast in there as well (3).

after dinner i will go on the treadmill!

**ETA - I just had a tbsp of FF sour cream with a tiny bit of cheese powder... it is YUMMY! a very good mac and cheese sauce! I did eat 3 reduced fat triscuits with it, so I have to add 1pt to my daily total**

ETA#2 - I did end up having chicken mac n' cheese for dinner... it was okay. i would have it again. so, it was chicken breast (3), 1c ww pasta (3), 3 tbsp FF sour cream (1), 2 tbsp cheese powder (1) - but next time i may only do 1 tbsp cheese powder... i think it was a bit too much. the sour cream might have been a bit too much kick for me too... i could also try FF evaporated milk in the future. or just some skim milk i suppose... 1/2 cup is only 1pt anyway! I also had 1 SF pudding and 2 SF peek frean cookies (2)... so yes, I have dipped into flex today. geez. but, i'm officially going on the treadmill RIGHT NOW! and it's okay to have used just a few flex points when i'm actually counting everything i'm putting in my mouth! the flex points ARE there for a reason i suppose!

TARA - I can totally empathize with you and the crackers and wagon wheels... jess and i have actually talked about the things we ate and hid from each other when we lived together even... we'd order 2 pizzas (we ate very different things on our pizza)... within 2 days i'd have mine gone and she'd still have some left so i'd pretend i didn't want it anymore and threw the rest out... not actually eating it all. she used to sneak KFC in her backpack and into her room so i wouldn't know she was eating it.. and i understand where you're coming from... of course john wouldn't get mad if you ate some of his food for his lunches... but the point is, you don't want him to know you ate them!!

What's in YOUR fridge?

I'm about to fall asleep, but thought of this earlier and thought it might be fun. I took a photo of my fridge, exactly how it looks today... without adding or taking away anything...

so here you go, take a peek in my fridge!