We're getting there...

The big day is almost here!

My whole plan of staying on program went out the window this weekend... but I'm not goint to let that sabotage the rest of my holidays. I'm not going to WW again until Jan 8... and I'm hoping to at least maintain (a loss would be great, but I'm realistic). I love food.

I still have no computer but will try to check in! Today is my last day of work for 2 weeks!!! woohoo!! (except for working at my 2nd job).

Merry Christmas!!!

Hip hip hooray!!

First, I know my posting has been less than desirable this week. I still don't have internet at home (except the few unstable times I can borrow from a neighbour)... and I just haven't thought to post from work.

The good news is I somehow managed to be down 0.2lbs this week. I don't know how, but it's a lovely christmas gift! To summarize my week...went on the treadmill 5 days (once for over an hour), ate too much on Sunday night at work and still came home and binged for some unknown reason... food was fine as of Monday though... and that about does it! I won't be at WW for two whole weeks now... since we are thursday meetings we are affected this year by christmas day AND boxing day. I thought about trying to weigh in somewhere else... and maybe around new years i will... but for now, not worrying. i'm just going to try to maintain and not GAIN over the holidays!!! I will have a week off the treadmill and the following week won't be steallar either between working at the hospital and babysitting (I am off from my full time job after monday and until jan 5).

I will come back before Christmas... this place has to help keep me on track over the holidays without being at WW!! I know a certain friend's eyes are watching my blog... and periodically a certain boyfriend too.

Happy weekend!!

Keeping it brief

I have internet again for a moment... so, what am I doing? blogging of course! Yesterday was an exhuasting day that involved running around and baking... and a lot of eating and no treadmill. Geepers. Treadmill is next on my list today... then cookies... then going to work. Why must I work weekends? why do people in social services not make enough money that they only require 1 job just to live? oh well... this is the path I have chosen! (for now that is!).

I don't know how much you'll see me... but I have ordered upgraded wireless internet and it should be here mid-week. Then I can really figure out if I'm going to keep my computer. so far, i love it. most people would likely find the screen too small... it suits its purpose for me!

Happy Sunday!!

Yay!!

This will be quickl... i don't know how long i have internet for. My computer blew up last night. this prompted alex to give me my christmas gift a little early... a PINK LAPTOP!!! i am currently stealing wireless internet from someone nearby. I'll have to decide what sort of internet i'm going to get (maybe that rogers stick?)... then go from there. i must say, it's rather cool being on the internet while on the couch.

i didn't get on the treadmill yesterday. i'm going to go on later today and the rest of the week. yesterday i wasn't feeling well in the morning and didn't sleep well thursday night... but i will get back on track. it's amazing how off track i feel after only missing one day. Last night Alex and I grabbed subway for dinner... ask me how happy I was! I LOVE when he is agreeable to getting subs for dinner. I really can't get enough subway! Happy weekend to all! today my plan is to finish baking some cupcakes (i had a cupcake order for today... extra money is good)... bake some cookies, do some shopping, do some jogging... maybe research some wireless internet... tomorrow will be TREADMILL in the morning and working 3:30 to 11:30. Next weekend is the sibley family christmas... i can't wait! If i get internet again i'll be back!

The results!

I was down 0.6lbs. Not alot, but it's still in the right direction.

It's been another long day... I'm going to bed already. I'm tired of all people this week and am ready to be a recluse with Chicklet and Alex this weekend. People are exhausting me this week.

Happy Friday to all!!
Tara - miss you!!! I hope the move is going well!

2 weeks from tonight is Christmas Eve!!

Santa must be getting exhausted by now. It's crunch time! I have definitely taken on more than I have time for this year... especially with working many weekends, but I'm enjoying it! I'll be proud when I get everything done that I'd like to.

Today I went on the treadmill (in case anyone is counting, that makes 5 days this week... tomorrow will make 6 days of treadmill this week!). I survived a LONG day at work (I swear, I would have given anything to get the hell out of there today. I just did NOT want to be there)... went shopping after work to put the finishing touches on my work secret santa gift... then home to bake and make christmas cards! Tonight I made my specialty cake truffles, crunchy peanut butter balls and more meringues... then I got started on my cards. They are quite a process... so much cutting (meticulous cutting too) and pasting. They are very time consuming... but hopefully people enjoy them.

I've been suffering from a lack of appetite this week. Not sure why... but I'll enjoy it while it lasts!

Here's what I forced myself to eat today:
Breakfast: apple (1)
Lunch: salad with cheese (1), turkey pepperette (1), 3tbsp ff italian (0), yogurt (1), 2 clementines (1)
Dinner: spicy mango basa fish fillet (3), bite of cake (1)
Total: 9 (seriously bad, I know... I'm sure I will find my appetite by tomorrow or the weekend. it's sad really, i love food!)
Water: 4L

Good luck tomorrow! I am making sure to stay for my meeting as this week they are unveiling the "NEW" weight watchers program. So very exciting!

One tough cookie...

Happy snowy Tuesday! I had a big compliment tonight during my massage... first, the RMT asked me if I'm "a runner". WHAT?? Me? HARDLY! My dad and Tara are runners... I do not even hold a candle to their torch. Apparently while she was massaging my calves/shins she thought maybe I run. Then later on she called me a "tough cookie" because she said there are times she feels really tough spots in my muscles and fully expects me to scream... but I never do, I just breathe through it. Apparently I tolerate pain well. Thank you RMT. Little did this poor lady know she made my night... I thrive on being strong and handling pain exceptionally well (physical pain that is!!!).

So, today I got on the treadmill and got myself to work all in the same day. I didn't get home until later than I had hoped... my RMT felt there were spots that needed extra care in my neck so she massaged me an extra 20min for free!!! I love that lady! When I got home it was right into baking/cleaning/crocheting Simon's blanket... all while watching biggest loser.

Biggest Loser. How could I forget? The big question of the night.... WHO to vote for? Well, unfortunately I don't care. I'm just happy Michelle made it to the finals. I am very excited to see the outcome next week. Could we have 2 female biggest losers in a row? I also love seeing all of the old contestants come back and witness their progress.

Forgot to mention... one of my goals has been to make my lunch in the evenings. I have now done that 2 evenings in a row. Woohoo!!! I must keep this momentum I am building during the holidays. I am working towards my reward my wonderful manfriend has promised me... a weekend away!

Here's what I ate today!
Breakfast: ww bagel (2), 2 egg whites (0), cheese slice (1)
Lunch: salad with lettuce, tomato, cucumber (0), turkey pepperette (1), cheese (1), 3 tbsp ff italian (0), yogurt (1), clementines (1)
PM Snack: dried peaches (0)
Dinner: Spicy Mango Basa fish (3), cheese string (1), cake batter... oops (2)
Total: 13 (low, but no time for a bigger dinner due to coming home late)
Water: 5L (thirsty today apparently!!)

happy hump day and MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Another Monday down...

Another weekend down... another weekend closer to my favourite day of the year (which is actually Christmas eve in case anyone is curious!).

This weekend was another busy one. Saturday getting my hair coloured first thing in the morning then baking all day (lemon squares, caramel shortbread squares, ginger white chocolate squares, rum balls, 2 kinds of almond bark and meringues)... then out to dinner Saturday night. Yesterday I got up early and made a weekend stop on the treadmill then went to Pontypool to put the baked goods in the freezer at mom and dad's house and drop off Chicklet... then I went to a friend's house to watch Christmas specials all day (it's an annual thing for us since we lived together)... then back to Pontypool for a quick visit and pick up the pup... and back to my place. I was home by 11:30 I think.

Today was back on the treadmill, doing dishes that got missed from the weekend, cleaning the bird's cage, cleaning the vacuum, cleaning the bathroom... and cleaning/organizing my closet... then off to work at 12:30! I have been slightly increasing the intensity on the treadmill... ever so slowly!

I ate less today because I pigged out all weekend basically! so...

Monday Food
Breakfast: 2pc ww toast (1), 1 wedge light laughing cow cheese (1), 2 tangerines (1)
Lunch: smart ones baked ziti (6)
afternoon snack: 100cal almonds (2)
Dinner: salad with lettuce, tomato, cucumber (0), turkey pepperette (1), allegro cheese (1), salad spritzer 20sprays (1), yogurt (1), apple (1), dried apple (0)
Bedtime snack: tea with splenda and splash of skim milk (0)
Total points: 16
Water: 5L

Happy Tuesday... when there will only be 16 days until Christmas! YAY!!!!!

Christmas?

It's getting closer! 20 days from right now it will all be over for my family... we will be recovering from yet another busy Christmas, getting ready to be sloths on boxing day! I have no idea why my Christmas countdown has disappeared... I still have it in my layout. Bizarre.

Today I went on the treadmill and went to work. Tonight I'm flying solo as Alex has other plans. I had every intention of baking... but it has become an evening off. Tomorrow (after my hair appointment) will be baking and making Christmas cards

Here's what I ate:
Breakfast: oatmeal (2), yogurt (1)
Lunch: tuna (2), cheese (1), 2tbsp ff miracle whip (1), flatout bread (1), yogurt (1), apple (1)
Dinner: falafel pita (11), garden salad (4), 100cal chocolate (2)
Total: 27
Water: 4L

Happy weekend! I reserve the right to come back and post this weekend... if not, see you Monday!

Yes, Virginia...

... there is a Santa Claus, for he is giving me the gift of weight loss during the holidays!

I was down 0.8lbs tonight. Not even a full pound... but I'm still happy!! only 25.4lbs to go until Alex takes me on a weekend away!! Even more incentive to be "good" during the holidays. Thank God for my dad having a Wii Fit at home now... I can keep working hard (and having fun doing it) while in Pontypool! Yay!

I have enjoyed my typical Thursday night subway dinner as well as some lindor chocolates... and now I am retiring to bed. Oh, also got on the treadmill again (finally) today and it felt great!!

Off to bed so I can get up early and enjoy maybe a bit longer job tomorrow! Happy Friday!!

The clock is ticking...

We are getting closer and closer to Christmas (still need to make cards, mail them, bake a million more things, finish Simon's blanket I'm crocheting... oh, and do my Christmas shopping and wrap presents! I can get it all done, I'm not worried)

So, yesterday ended up being exactly what I have dreamed of for 17 months. Michele asked me on Monday (last minute thing) if I could babysit last night so her and Jacob could finally go to dinner (before Jacob leaves again on business). I suggested Simon stay home from daycare and I just spend the day with him... then I don't have to drive from Whitby to Hamilton after work and Michele doesn't have to worry about going and getting Simon from daycare... she could just come home and get ready to go out. Michele was all for it! I left my place at 6am, arrived in Hamilton at 7am... just as my cool little nephew woke up... and I was there with him until 11pm (got home at midnight). I was there for his every waking moment. I was in heaven. He is smarter than I ever realized... he mimics everything he hears right now. He says "AUNT JEN" (although I haven't heard it... everyone else has. When I ask him to say it he just smiles and points at me). Most of the time you actually can understand what he's trying to tell you... the child is 17 months old and is putting together simple sentences (are Michele and Jacob in for it later? probably! He is very opinionated! Luckily, very good spirited)... but then he goes into babble mode and you can just get a fragment of what he's saying (usually he is telling a story about 'mama', 'daddy' or 'poppa'). I was very sad when I put him down to bed... before I put him in his crib I already missed him (and did NOT want to put him down)... BUT, I know I'll be seeing him in 2 1/2 weeks for the Sibley Christmas... AND I have been asked to babysit OVERNIGHT on the 29th!!! Hooray!!! Michele and Jacob are going away together for the very first time since he was born... long overdue! It's a surprise for Jacob for his birthday. No doubt he will love it.

I watched Biggest Loser once Simon was in bed. I stand by all previous opinions of the people who are idiots... and now I'm cheering on Michelle.

Yesterday and today were not successful treadmill days. I had to leave my place at 6am yesterday... set the alarm for 4:30 in case I could muster up energy to go on the treadmill. Not bloody likely. Today... going on 5 hours of sleep... treadmill wasn't happening. I'll go on tomorrow morning likely... although, I always struggle with whether or not I should jog on weigh in day.

Tonight I crocheted more of Simon's blanket I'm making him for Christmas (when it's done I will post photos)... and baked a couple more Christmas items! I'm slowly checking things off my list... the big finale will be the Santa Bear 3D cake I'm baking and decorating (photos will follow for that one too!).

So, my dear friend Tara has her house now... I hope it's all going well!!!

Too tired to post what I ate... it's typical of most days though, so just refer back to Monday or Wednesday of last week.

Good luck tomorrow... I have NO idea where I stand given how much I ate on the weekend and my lack of activity... and my period (oops, you didn't want to know that, did you).

It's the most wonderful time of the year!

I can't believe it's DECEMBER! How exciting is that? Christmas is practically here!! I have to do some major shopping... and baking! Saturday is a hair appointment and following that - making christmas cards and major baking!! Sunday is the annual Christmas movie marathon day that my friend and I started back when we lived together. Didn't think we'd be able to do it this year, but with my dad's retirement party weekend being postponed... we were able to squeeze it in.

The treadmill just didn't happen this weekend. Saturday was moving my sister day and Sunday was errands in the morning and working afternoon/evening. Today I managed to get my butt on there however.

Here's what I ate (points are LOW today due to the copious amounts of food consumed all weekend)
Breakfast: pineapple (1), cottage cheese (2)
Lunch: flatout (1), chicken breast (2), cheese (1), yogurt (1), apple (1)
Dinner: salad with fake lobster meat (2), cheese (1), salad spritzer (1), carrots (0), yogurt (1), tangerines (1), almonds (2)
Total: 17
Water: 5L!!!

Tomorrow I may be sick from work... and may find my way to Hamilton to help out with a certain nephew... but I haven't heard from my sister to confirm that yet!

Good news!

I was down 3.4lbs!

I guess my trip to Pontypool on the weekend wasn't as horrible as I thought! Or maybe just being back to regular treadmill mornings is helping... who knows. Either way, I'll try to keep it up!

I've had my turkey sub and sugar free rolo ice cream. Popcorn may be in my future tonight... definitely quiet time on the couch is in order and maybe working on Simon's christmas blanket.

Happy Friday!

Retirement Day!

Shoot... I realized I didn't post yesterday and despite going to bed late... I just had to post today.

Yesterday I was at training and then came home for a bit to have dinner, then back out for a very lovely massage... then home to have an epson salts bath to assist with some soreness post massage. after that I worked on the blanket I'm crocheting for Simon... and went to bed early. Did I mention I did go on the treadmill yesterday? I did.

That brings us to today.


Today... got up, went on treadmill, went to work, sat through long meeting, left work and headed to dad's office. Dad retired today! I can't believe my dad is a retired man... such a strange concept because I still remember when my grandparents retired (mind you, that wasn't until 65... dad's 55!). Mom and Kristen and I surprised dad by meeting him outside the office... he was shocked! Well, I hear he was shocked... I arrived about 1min too late... but he was still surprised when I got there. We did some shopping and then headed out to dinner... and here I am.

Here's what I ate today:
Breakfast: oatmeal (2), yogurt (1)
Lunch: salad with veggies (0), cheese (1), hellman's salad spritzer (0), yogurt (1), tangerines (1), carrots (0)
Dinner: Sonoma Valley Salad at Kelsey's (minus croutons with balsamic drsg on the side... I ate about 1tbsp of it)... (11)
Total: 17
Water: 4L

We were supposed to go to dinner and the movies with friends tomorrow... but poor Alex is so swamped at work it's nuts. I feel bad for him (but it's better than not having business I suppose!). Tomorrow night's double date has been postponed. I was going to weigh in at lunch... I guess I will just go to my regular weigh in after work!

Good Thursday luck to all!!! We'll see if my minor infractions on the weekend catch up with me on the scale this week.

3 day wrap up!

Well, I survived the weekend. The bad news? I did eat some chocolate covered almonds... some cookies... some cadbury thins... the good news? I could have done a LOT worse. I still have some damage control to do this week, but all in all... I'm getting better with my weekends away. Now I won't have one again for a while.

No treadmill today. I got up early with the intention of going on it (but had to be in Ajax by 8:15am today... rather than my Monday morning off), but had a headache when I got up... tried to get on the treadmill but I couldn't tolerate it and laid back down for a bit. Tonight I tried to get on again... but was dragging my feet so bad I almost tripped (first aid and CPR training today = exhausting).

After work today I took the scenic route home and ended up at the new store a couple of blocks away at my closest mall. What is that store?

I had ZERO intention of buying anything... but alas, it's impossible to enter that store and come out empty handed. So, I got a few holiday soaps:



As for what I ate today?
Breakfast: fell back asleep, no time to eat before having to leave early
Lunch: salad (0) with cheese (1), turkey pepperette (1), 3tbsp ff italian (0), yogurt (1), clementines (1), baby carrots (0)
Snack: PB (1), fluff (1)
Dinner: flatout (1), cheese (2), tuna (2), ff miracle whip (1), margarine (1), popcorn (2), skinny cow (2), candy cane (1)
Total: 18
Water: 3L (and counting)

Tomorrow the goal is to get up early and on the treadmill, then out to CPR early again, then a massage tomorrow night!!

I can do this!

I shall be successful in my journey to Pontypool this weekend! I shall have a successful and positive attitude on my way there... and tomorrow when I am driving back to my place, I will feel proud of my success!

Alex and I went to dinner last night. Man, I do love my sushi! We were tired by the time we were coming home... so dessert was a yummy latte to give us some energy for decorating the tree! I will post pictures of this year's tree next week.

Enjoy the weekend... stay on program... feel pride in success!!!

Desperate times...

You know the saying. Desperate times call for desperate measures.

The good news? I was down. The bad news? It was only 0.4lbs. May I remind us all that over a 3 week period I had GAINED 6lbs! Being down 0.4lbs (when I'm not even PMS'ing) isn't great. I realize I could have made better choices on the weekend... But, enough is enough. It's time to work my ass off and eat a LOT less. I got so used to eating more over the summer that now I tend to feel like I'm starving when I don't over-indulge. Well... feeling hungry is about to become my friend. I saw on a weight loss show once that when you're trying to restrict your calories (going from an unhealthier amount to a healthy amount for daily intake) there MAY be times you'll feel hungry. I am going to embrace that hunger.
Snacks will now only be 100 calorie pack almonds, veggies, fruit or a cheese string (note to self: when at Costco with the mother this weekend... buy a bulk item of cheese strings!).

I'm saying all of these things... but I'm not feeling it yet. I feel like I've been doing this so long... maybe I'm meant to just stay at this weight. I know it's bologna... I know once I get back to losing great amounts of weight I'll have more drive again... so, I just have to stick it out!!!

I thought about removing my ticker. I've avoided updating it for a few weeks now... in hopes I'd get back down. I'm going to CHANGE my ticker and start fresh. Yep, that's what I'll do!!!

Happy Friday tomorrow! Tomorrow Alex and I are decorating the tree (one of the perks of living in a building and not being allowed a real tree... fake trees can go up insanely early!). It's grandma and grandpa sibley's tree so alex and I always make it a special evening and decorate together then watch a christmas movie! Tomorrow we are also celebrating 5yrs together... so, we are having dinner (courtesy of Tara and John!) at our favourite all-you-can-eat sushi place!!!
Saturday I'm heading to Pontypool to go to Costco with my mom, help mom decorate, help dad put the lights outside, help Kristen bake and decorate a cake for her friend... then Sunday is the Lindsay Santa Claus Parade! I get to see my favourite little Princess, Raven! Yay!!

Coleen, I salute you

Well, I was sad to see her go. While I'm not happy she got voted off... I understand she was a bigger threat than the ever-annoying (and sometimes psychotic) alternative to be booted off tonight.

Today consisted of going on the treadmill, going to work, going for a massage, then coming home and eating dinner.

Here's what I ate today:
Breakfast: 1/2c cottage cheese (2), small banana (1)
Lunch: flatout (1), lettuce (0), tomato (0), cheese (3), chicken (2), brown rice (2), yogurt (1), apple (1), tangerines (1)
Dinner: chicken chili (2), cheese (3), peanut butter (3), marshmallow fluff (1)
Total: 23
Total water today: 5L (holy MOLY!)

Tomorrow I'm going to work at my other job until 11:30... if you don't see me here, you know why!!!

happy hump day!

My weekend via photo summary

Friday:
Chicken Chili (photo is not my actual chili)


Then watching ELF (tis the season after all!)


Saturday:
Working


Then a trip to blockbuster before coming home and baking meringues

(movies bought include: what happens in Vegas, Made of Honor, Forgetting Sarah Marshall, Baby Mama)

Sunday:
Road trip!!




Today I got myself back on the treadmill and then went in to work.

Here's what I ate
Breakfast: banana (2), flatout wrap (1), egg whites (0), light cheddar (2)
Snack: meringues (2)
Lunch: lean cuisine from Buffalo! (7)
Dinner at work: salad with chicken (2), cheese (2), salad spritzer (0), yogurt (1), apple (1), pear (1)
Total:21
Water: 4L (hey, I have to drink my thousands of crystal lights I bought!)

Tomorrow's plan: treadmill, work, massage, home... all the while staying OP and back to my "4 & 7" plan!

Thursday? Already?

Well, I have good news and bad news. The bad news is that I was up. The good news is it was only 0.2lbs... I expected more. The effects of the past week and a half were still haunting me on the scale (Halloween, wedding, birthday)... I think going on the treadmill 5 times this week helped minimize the damage. yay. Next week I'll be down.

Tomorrow it's up and out of here early for more training (then a week without training! yay!)... but then I'm working Saturday at the hospital... and Sunday Alex and I are heading to the US possibly! We figure we'll take a road trip, just the 2 of us... and if we cross the border and buy crystal light... bonus. It always depends on weather now and how we feel that day... but just the thought of a road trip, just the two of us, all day... very appealing right now!!

Tonight was my footlong turkey subway... then baking peppermint meringues... some knitting... and watching TV.

Meringues. MERINGUES!!! How did I not think of these sooner? I've seen them in stores and they didn't look appealing to me whatsoever... it's different when you bake them at home I think! I've made peppermint meringues 2 nights in a row now... they are low calorie and fat free and you can have FIVE for ONE point!

Photos:



Well, must get to bed... I have to go on the treadmill tomorrow (since I likely won't on Saturday evening and won't on Sunday!) before I leave early for stupid health and safety training.

I will try to check in on the weekend.

PS - Where is my friend Tara? I hope you're well and everything is okay!!!

Cravings?

This has to be quick... I need to get to bed.

Score one for the treadmill again today. Yay!

I wasn't at the office today, i'm off site for training for 3 LONG days.

It's too late to post what I ate... but I stayed OP.

I've been having insane cravings the last 2 days... what was I craving, you ask? Protein (specifically tuna with ff miracle whip... and eggs)... AND dairy (specifically cheese and yogurt). Bizarre. I read once if you're craving something it means your body is suffering from a deficiency... so, in light of that. The last 2 days have consisted mostly of tuna, eggs, cheese and yogurt!

Good luck tomorrow!

Biggest Loser recap

Please tell me I'm not the only one who finds themselves actually whole-hearted disliking Biggest Loser contestants? I am astounded by Heba, Vicky and Brady and their childish behaviour (Yes, I realize I am seeing them on TV and don't know them in person... so I can only go by how they act on TV). I feel bad, this is the first time I have NOT wanted Bob's team to win. As I saw how pathetic these foursome were acting with Phillip returning to the house... I couldn't believe we were watching a show about adults trying to lose weight and not some MTV show about brats!

Regardless.. I have the utmost respect for Amy. Talk about a SMART game-player. She knew with the strong alliance on her former team (an alliance she was not a part of) she didn't stand a chance... she was smart to get an alliance member (and someone who COULD be the biggest loser at that) out of there. Way to go Amy! The show had a happy ending!

As I type this, my youngest sister is text messaging me with joy at the fact that Heba and her holier than thou attitude may be on her way out the door! Joy of joys!!

Lest we forget...

Luckily, despite our office being open, we managed to have a moment of silence today. Growing up Remebrance Day was always very important... I hope everyone had their moment of silence today.

I managed to get on the treadmill again today. Yay! I did NOT hit the snooze button... and once I could get myself out of bed then I was home-free. I didn't feel tired at all. The trick is just getting out of bed... that's the tough part.

Tonight I'm going for a massage! Yay!

Here's what I'm eating today:
Breakfast: oatmeal (2), yogurt (1)
Lunch: lettuce, tomato and salad spriter (0), avocado with tomato and cucumber (2), baby carrots (0), ff cottage cheese and fruit cup (2), yogurt (1), apple (1), candy cane (1)
Dinner: cookie binge - BAD (6), tuna (2), ff miracle whip (1), cheese string (1), cheese slice (1), cottage cheese and fruit cup (2)
Total: 23
Water: 3.5L

**Note to self: Don't go for a massage before eating dinner... by the time I got home I was starving, hence the cookie bine!**

It's the most wonderful time of the year!

The anticipation for Christmas starts... the commercials start... the TV specials will start soon... so exciting!

Alex and I had our dinner on Friday. It was hands down, the best food I have EVER eaten in my entire life. I had a lobster risotto with white truffles for an appetizer... and then seared Cod with lobster dumplings and swiss chard for an entree... a chocolate trio for dessert... and 3 martinis. There are no words for how good the food was.

The rest of the weekend was a bust... I had 'stomach issues'... some events came up with Michele (and she now has to move out of her home at the end of the month thanks to a threatening neighbour who lives in the basement of the house they rent) and I didn't have Simon, which is probably good because I felt like crapola... and so I spent Saturday resting (and trying to eat without feeling ill)... and then Sunday I didn't end up even going in to work.

I did, however, get on the treadmill on Friday morning... and attempted it yesterday (couldn't hack it very long), and then went on again today!

The goal is to stick with my resolutions last week (which, by the way, should read I am going to try to be asleep by 10:30, not 1:30 as I have written). and LOSE WEIGHT this week! Alex has promised me a reward for 30lbs from now... we will get a weekend away!!

Okay, time for the old honesty now... and confessions of what I have really eaten today.
Breakfast: 3 snickerdoodles (6), 2 oatmeal raisin cookies (5), ww bagel (2), 3 ff cheese slices (2), egg (2), egg whites (0)
Lunch (recoving from breakfast): healthy request soup (2), pear (1)
Dinner: lettuce and tomato with salad spritzer (0), cottage cheese and fruit cup (2), yogurt (1), apple (1), 2 clementines (1)
Total: 25
Water: 5L (wowzer!)

I have taken my melatonin in hopes of going to bed early (although have decided to bake chocolate chip cookies right now for some reason... and NOT eat any of them! go me!). I have taken my vitamins. I have to make my lunch for tomorrow... and then I am on track with my resolutions!

Happy Remembrance Day. Alex's office is closed... I, however, will be at work.

I resolve

So, I was up 5.8lbs tonight. I earned every last ounce of it. I would like to thank the great Halloween candy, the great food and copious drinks at Steph's wedding, the lovely dinner and desserts (and leftover Halloween candy) on Sunday... and my birthday dinner (and dessert) on Monday. I couldn't have gained almost 6lbs without any of you.

Tonight, as my reward, I have thoroughly enjoyed my footlong turkey subway.

I was thinking... I need to make some resolutions. I don't need to wait until January. Why not start them now? 3 days into being 30yrs old (I still can't believe that's how old I am).
1. remember to take my vitamins every night
2. take melatonin every night
3. get to sleep by 1:30
4. get 7-8hrs of sleep a night
5. go on the treadmill in the morning
6. lose weight again

I think these are realistic resolutions.

Happy Friday!

LAZY!!!

I am so lazy this week... it is unbelievable. First we had Halloween, then a wedding, then my birthday... the eating was the worst it's been in a LONG time. I have zero desire or energy to keep track of what I'm having or what I'm eating. I haven't written anything down in a week.

Well, I've decided to move forward. My birthday week ends tomorrow. Time to get back on track as of Friday. Alex and I are going to dinner... but I can be healthy. We don't need to get dessert (we did that on Monday)... Tara is coming Saturday. We can be healthy together (my fellow subway-lover!)... I can save my points for drinks... and can go on the treadmill Friday AND Saturday.. This can work!

I've love to plan to lose 3lbs a week until Christmas... I realize that isn't realistic, but if I aim high then maybe that will motivate me. Lose 20lbs by Christmas? I was losing about 3lbs a week before Easter... I know what I have to do. Now that the weddings and my birthday are over with... time to focus (can you hear my trying to convince myself? My real attitude this week is that I don't care and want to be able to eat anything I want).

Anyway, here's a photo from the weekend! I'll be back tomorrow with the very bad results of WI (but at least that means i'll have an even greater loss next week, right?). I thought about not going at all... but I bought a 6 month pass so if I don't go, it's like I'm losing out on a week I already paid for... so, there's no harm in going. My weight is my weight... whether I go or not.

Okay, as I said... here's a photo:

Well I'll be...

I stayed the same. Considering how much I ate and how little I exercised this week (and it's my 'bloated' week)... this was definitely my 'get out of jail free' card. Next week I have to work hard to make sure this last terrible week doesn't catch up with me.

My mood is slightly better today...

you know what made me feel better tonight? food. geez... will i ever reach a point where food doesn't help my mood? it totally does. subway and TWIX tonight... oh yes, I'm bad. i'll behave the rest of the weekend (as well as can be expected).

i took a day off today... i woke up still feeling like crying... my eyes were a swollen mess from crying and lack of sleep... work was not a good idea. i also will be taking the day off tomorrow...

So, i got some stuff done today. Got my emissions test done (passed with flying colours. can't believe my car is old enough now that it needs one done!)... and found an outfit. I won't even bother explaining it... here is a photo of it. please tell me what you think!

It's a bad day

Let me preface this by saying... I'm PMS'ing...



no treadmill today. i feel sick to my stomach.. i think it's because i'm sick of worrying about something to wear saturday. i bought pants and a shirt and vest today. i can't pull it off. i look like a butch lesbian. i don't know what i'll wear... but i'm better under pressure so i'll find something tomorrow night or saturday.

my venting is done. i'm sorry for sounding like a bit of a princess! just getting my disappointment off my chest...

(PS - alex is taking me to a fancy dinner next weekend... i am grateful for that).

I am. Sloth.

No treadmill today. I couldn't get my butt out of bed until 20min before I had to leave for work!!! Who knows why so tired. Maybe because I couldn't sleep last night. I have got to remember to go back to melatonin. My mom told me about a kitten that showed up at their house and cries to come in to the house (but can't, mom and kristen have cat allergies)... they had been locking it in the garage at night to keep it safe (we have wolves and fox)... mom posted a photo at the Pontypool store and the kitty is safe and sound back at its home (on Sandy Hook Road... where ever that is. I don't know the new street names up there).

In any case, I couldn't sleep because I was worrying about the cat. Goodness, I need to go back to taking melatonin. AND remember to drink red bull immediately upon waking in the morning.

Okay, so quickly... here's what I ate today:
Breakfast: 1.5c skim milk (3), slimfast (2)
Lunch: salad with tuna and allegro cheese (2), yogurt (1), apple (1)
Dinner: 2c broccoli soup (3), melted allegro cheese (1), 4tbsp ff sour cream (1), 3oz chicken breast, steamed (3), yogurt (1)
Snack...oops: 3 skinny cow bars (6)
Total: 24pts
Water: 2L (need to increase THAT tomorrow)

Tomorrow's goal: treadmill and red bull in the AM!! MAYBE a last chance workout in the evening if I'm up for it.

Also, I need to find something to wear already for the wedding! This is NOT going well. I need to either a)get skinny by Saturday... or b) become less picky. There is something to be said about being a bridesmaid and not having to pick out your own outfit!! I would like something a bit more casual (perhaps to wear christmas eve or for my bday dinner with alex as well... pants, nice shirt and vest maybe... who knew vests would make a return?).

Tara: Alex's birthday was good! Nothing big... Friday night and Sunday we celebrated, just the 2 of us... went to dinner, went to the movies... went for Starbucks. He's not one for big parties, so this was right up his alley!

Get a grip!!

This is a most recent photo of me (taken this past weekend). What is wrong with me? I blame PMS to be honest... I cannot stop eating. I have an appetite as bad as a horse (or just a girl PMS'ing... what's worse??)

The good news is I got back on the treadmill this morning (after taking the weekend off to RELAX! I don't remember the last time I relaxed on a weekend).

Today I started off with good intentions... but had deprived myself enough that I binged by the time I got home.

Here's today:
Breakfast: forgot to eat it (this just crossed my mind now. I forgot to eat breakfast)
Lunch: 1c hamburger soup (1), skinny cow caramel vanilla bar (2)
Snack: yogurt (1), apple (1)
Dinner: salad with tuna and cheese (2) and 3 tbsp ff italian (0), yogurt (1), 1c broccoli/cauliflower soup (2), trail mix (3)
Snack upon getting home: ice cream (7), 2 pkg granola bites (4)
Total: 24
Water: 2L

Today's lesson? Don't deprive myself so much during the day. I'll only binge later!

Tara: I hope the run went well! Alex and I were thinking about you guys while we were out!

Good luck today! (plus results)

No treadmill today. I slept through my alarm! Guess that solves the dilemma of whether or not to go on! I don't know why I was so tired last night and why I couldn't get up today. Now, today at work I am light-headed and feeling 'off'... Bizarre. I don't know if any of my notes are making sense when I speak to clients... I will hope they are!

Good luck for everyone weighing in today (all 2 of us, Tara!)

I will be back with my results later.

I'm back. I was DOWN 2.4LBS! yay!!! I have already enjoyed a footlong chicken teriyaki subway and some nerds... now the rest of the evening will involve some low fat popcorn and Ugly Betty and Grey's Anatomy... and me with my couch and puppy. I love Thursday evenings!

I am strong!

First, I have to say... it's the night before weigh in and I have a package of giant chewy nerds on my coffee table that is SCREAMING out for me... but I am resisting. Let me tell you, it's damn hard too!! They're jelly bean centers with nerd candy shells. So good. BUT alas, I am fighting it. They will be more rewarding tomorrow night after weigh in! You can find them at party packagers... but I haven't seen them anywhere else.
I am exhausted tonight. I spent the morning at SickKids and then the afternoon and evening out in Whitby at the office. I got home at 8:30 and have fought to stay awake since then (so I could watch Workout)... now, I am going to bed!

I got on the treadmill this morning (yay!). I don't know if I'll go on tomorrow. If i do, then it'll be 4 days this week. I always struggle with whether jogging the morning of weigh in is good come weigh in time that evening. We'll see what tomorrow brings... maybe just a little jog.

Here's what I ate today:
Breakfast: egg (2), 2 egg whites (0), 30g allegro cheese (1), yogurt (1)
Lunch: 2c hamburger soup (3), celery stalks with 2tbsp PB (4), tomato (0), apple (1), yogurt (1)
Snack: 100 cal smart pop (1)
Dinner: 2c hamburger soup (3), applesauce (1)
Snack: tea (0)
Total: 18 points (should be more, but it's hard to pack enough for lunch AND dinner and I refuse to eat out the day before WI!)
Water: 3L

Time for BED! Good luck tomorrow!!! I hope Tara can find her scale!

A Terrific Tuesday!

First and foremost... I got on the treadmill today!


Second, I didn't eat any bad fruit (and therefore had an appetite again)!


Overall, a good day!

Tomorrow is a long day (going between 2 jobs)... then Thursday and Friday lunch hours will be spent trying to find a reasonably priced outfit for the upcoming wedding. Have I mentioned I'm the MC? I was originally asked to give a speech (which I still am)... but now I'm the MC as well. Seems the bride and groom saw me being an MC at another wedding and enjoyed it and decided to ask me. A wedding just wouldn't be a wedding to me any more if I wasn't playing my active part (which I love anyway!!!).

Here's a couple more photos from Saturday night:






Okay, on to what I ate today:
Breakfast: egg (2), 2 egg whites (0), 1/2c ff cottage cheese (2)
Lunch: salad with tuna (1), allegro cheese (1), ff italian (0), vegetables (0)... yogurt (1)... apple (1)... orange (1)
PM snack: 100cal smart pop (1), cheese slice (1)
Dinner: 2c Hamburger Soup (click to see recipe!) (3pts)... 2tbsp choc chips (3)... 1c skim milk (2), 100cal hot chocolate (2)... yogurt (1)
Total: 22pts
Water: 3L

I'm enjoying the hamburger soup... basically it's tomato soup with chicken and vegetables. You could substitute soy ground meat for the chicken... and I didn't put the carrots in (didn't have any), but put 2 tins of mushrooms, green pepper and celery.

I started watching Biggest Loser tonight but decided to tape it on the west coast channel and watch it on the treadmill in the morning. I've watched some of it and can tell you I would like to see these chicks go home:



Happy Hump day to all! Behave now, it's the day before weigh in!!